I'm just goofing around my two blogs, and write every other day to the other so that I don't seem to be so bored, muaha!
Now our house is clean, I even washed the floor! Laundry is still drying and I can't pack my bags ready until I get all my clothes from there (well, one skirt). Vepa will dye my hair today, so that it looks fine again. Now my own color starts to show way too much.
I didn't sleep this morning enough (as I haven't slept all week), everybody just keeps calling and messaging me and I always wake up because of them and can't sleep. On Monday it was Taru, yesterday it was mom and today Tuula. Hope I could sleep late enough tomorrow... Because I can't go bed earlier that 3 am because I'm not tired!
Our cats seem to realize that something's in the air. They come to me all the time, and they usually don't come so often! Last night I almost got my first leaving tear in my eye when we went to bed and chatted about my leaving. So now it starts. I bet I'll cry this night (for some reason I cry more easily at night than at daytime) or tomorrow.
Oh god! I just realized that next night will be my last night in my home for a while... Maybe I should go bed early just to goof around with Tarmo. And try to stay there as long as possible on the morning... Because I just love our bed! It's the best place in the world when Tarmo lies there beside me. And I have to play with our cats the whole night because then it's cool enough and they're active. Now they're just sleeping and trying to find the coolest place in here.
And tomorrow I'll leave to Tampere, we'll see Reija at Matkakeskus and I'll give her my key so that she can take care of our babies for the weekend. I'm a bit sad because I didn't see all my friends before leaving though I still try to keep in mind that half a year goes by quickly.
I think this is the last post I'll write in here for a while, so check out my exchange blog if you're interested how's life going at the other side of the sea. (Feels strange to say that.)
ps. Tarmo gave me the red network cable, I asked if we had one spare for me to take with me, he gave me blue, I asked that didn't we have red one somewhere, it was in use but he replaced it with the blue one so that I could have the red one. I just love that man! He didn't even argue, muaha!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Monday, August 06, 2007
Bags Almost Packed!
HA!
I did it! Well almost, it weights now 6kg 100g!!! I still should pack my laptop bag to see how my electronics fits there and how much extra space is left to pack some more with me.
...here's my red suitcase!
And yes, I'm bored. I still should edit few pics but I'm just not interested enough to do that. I thought that I'd send the few pics that Tuula asked me to mail her and then I'll just see if I could fin strength to edit the last pics too. Then I could give the dvd and one book to Reija and she could give them to Tuula as I won't go to the university anymore.
I've been founding more and more butterflies from my stomach. I've started to go through in my mind the coming flights. Sometimes I even get in to the point when it isn't so scary anymore. But mostly I'm nervous. I asked Tarmo if he already gets excited and nervous and he said yes. He worries that what will he do in here when I'm gone. Cute. I won't have to worry what I'll do but I do worry what he'll do. I don't wan him just to sit at home waiting for me. Or waiting to come to US to spend Christmas with me (that is what I'm already waiting for). Though I do know that after the first days and weeks he'll get used to it and he'll live just as normal life as before, maybe hanging out more with his friends.
By the way, Taru called me this morning. Mom and dad weren't invited to Laura's confirmation and party but I and Tarmo were. We couldn't go there unfortunately. But it was funny, she talked me with all the issues she usually talks with mom. It's just that now she couldn't call to mom because she talked mostly of the party where my parents weren't invited. I know that especially mom was offended by that and I think she has all the reasons to get offended. After all mom is close to them. And even though mom says she's not THAT offended, I know she is. I'm too for her... And I don't know why they weren't invited. Nor does she. Usually they go to all parties and they love Mira and Laura both very much. Just another thing that I don't understand. Not that I would understand many things in any case, muaha!
It's so hot. And beautiful weather. But I don't want to go outside because there it's even hotter and I only get burned. Even kitties are all sleepy. But nice weather for my vacation.
We still should clean the house and do some laundry. I think we'll do those on Wednesday and tomorrow we'll go to buy vacuum cleaner pouches. And I really should edit the pics by tomorrow... Maybe I'll do that this evening/night. Now I'm not in the mood.
I did it! Well almost, it weights now 6kg 100g!!! I still should pack my laptop bag to see how my electronics fits there and how much extra space is left to pack some more with me.
Here's my stuff and...
...here's my red suitcase!And yes, I'm bored. I still should edit few pics but I'm just not interested enough to do that. I thought that I'd send the few pics that Tuula asked me to mail her and then I'll just see if I could fin strength to edit the last pics too. Then I could give the dvd and one book to Reija and she could give them to Tuula as I won't go to the university anymore.
I've been founding more and more butterflies from my stomach. I've started to go through in my mind the coming flights. Sometimes I even get in to the point when it isn't so scary anymore. But mostly I'm nervous. I asked Tarmo if he already gets excited and nervous and he said yes. He worries that what will he do in here when I'm gone. Cute. I won't have to worry what I'll do but I do worry what he'll do. I don't wan him just to sit at home waiting for me. Or waiting to come to US to spend Christmas with me (that is what I'm already waiting for). Though I do know that after the first days and weeks he'll get used to it and he'll live just as normal life as before, maybe hanging out more with his friends.
By the way, Taru called me this morning. Mom and dad weren't invited to Laura's confirmation and party but I and Tarmo were. We couldn't go there unfortunately. But it was funny, she talked me with all the issues she usually talks with mom. It's just that now she couldn't call to mom because she talked mostly of the party where my parents weren't invited. I know that especially mom was offended by that and I think she has all the reasons to get offended. After all mom is close to them. And even though mom says she's not THAT offended, I know she is. I'm too for her... And I don't know why they weren't invited. Nor does she. Usually they go to all parties and they love Mira and Laura both very much. Just another thing that I don't understand. Not that I would understand many things in any case, muaha!
It's so hot. And beautiful weather. But I don't want to go outside because there it's even hotter and I only get burned. Even kitties are all sleepy. But nice weather for my vacation.
We still should clean the house and do some laundry. I think we'll do those on Wednesday and tomorrow we'll go to buy vacuum cleaner pouches. And I really should edit the pics by tomorrow... Maybe I'll do that this evening/night. Now I'm not in the mood.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Leaving Party and Butterflies
Omg! I just got a swarm of butterflies into my tummy. I added this counter application to my facebook site and it says 5 days! It can't be!
Yesterday was fun. We jumped again with jump-rope and barbecued and got drunk and went to Rentukka and then back to our place. I also called Jesse and got a good laugh when he asked (and we talked about my thesis) "can I have a testicle cancer in my brains?". I laughed so much!
Me and Kirsikka dancing, after this song Kirsikka bended me back too much and I spilled our drinks over my computer (luckily not over my laptop).
And it's funny, we went to sleep at 4 am which is only hour later than we usually go to sleep! And woke up at noon which is also normal in these days. And I'm not having hang over because I drunk water (about 2 liters) before I went to bed. And that's good.
5 days!!! I can imagine being abroad but I can't imagine traveling alone there... But I can still remember how it was so exciting to travel by train to Tampere and back for the first times. Muaha! Or to Savonlinna and I had to change to bus and I had never traveled there before. It's not that it's not exciting to travel with someone, but alone! I don't know why it's such a big deal. Maybe because I've used to be with Tarmo everywhere I go. Or that I'm not that experienced in traveling and I fear that I get lost (right...) or confused (could happen!) or I get so nervous that I can't speak English (right...) or I miss my flight (so what?) or or... I still know that this will develop me and I want to experience this. But it still scares me.
I know that traveling alone doesn't mean that I won't be social or get company on my way, I know that I will look so frightened that someone more experienced will come and chat with me, muaha! No, I mean that I'm so social that I'll chat with people anyway and that'll relieve my fears. I know that there will be other people who are just in the same situation that I'm in. And it's no point thinking (seriously) what if questions. If something happens then it happens.
I'm not so nervous about actually being at Iowa, not knowing anyone. Well, I almost know someones there. But whole new environment doesn't make me nervous. I know that there are so many other people who I'll meet who are just in the same situation, and I know how to get to the hotel, I'll get my breakfast there on Saturday morning and then my temporary roommate Paola will come and then, then we'll go to check out the city or something. But then I have someone who I can talk with. And it's not that I couldn't go and check out the city by myself but it's the company. And still the airports scare me. Not the flying itself but the airports. All the security checks make me nervous (as they're supposed to do I think) and as being control freak I fear that my tickets are wrong (aren't), my bags include something prohibited (don't), flights will be late (matters only if the flight from Helsinki to Dublin is hours late) or or or... And here I go again.
But still I need to think about these things. I still wait when I'll start crying to Tarmo that I'll miss him, I don't want to leave him and our cats and home, I want him to come with me. The hardest part of this exchange thing is that we'll be separated for four-five months. We're so close to each other and we are used to cuddle, chat and just be with each other every day. We'll still talk to each other every day in the internet but it's not the same. I need comfort and Tarmo gives it to me. But we'll manage. I can only wait the Christmas when he comes there.
And the kitties. I will miss them too, I'm so used to someone soft and warm to curl around my leg or back when I take nap or some black tail to sweep me now and then. Sigh. I will miss my friends and family too. But then again, it's only half a year. It goes by so fast and then I'm suddenly back.
I did this choice to go overseas. I did this choice to miss everyone (not that I could make a choice not to miss anyone, muaha). This is one of my dream come true. Oh I get so excited!
Today is going to be a hang over day though I don't have hang over. This means that I don't need to dress up or go to anywhere. I can just relax. Nice.
Yesterday was fun. We jumped again with jump-rope and barbecued and got drunk and went to Rentukka and then back to our place. I also called Jesse and got a good laugh when he asked (and we talked about my thesis) "can I have a testicle cancer in my brains?". I laughed so much!
J-P and Maria are so cute... at the background we're jumping.
Me, Kirsikka and Reija
Me and Kirsikka dancing, after this song Kirsikka bended me back too much and I spilled our drinks over my computer (luckily not over my laptop).And it's funny, we went to sleep at 4 am which is only hour later than we usually go to sleep! And woke up at noon which is also normal in these days. And I'm not having hang over because I drunk water (about 2 liters) before I went to bed. And that's good.
5 days!!! I can imagine being abroad but I can't imagine traveling alone there... But I can still remember how it was so exciting to travel by train to Tampere and back for the first times. Muaha! Or to Savonlinna and I had to change to bus and I had never traveled there before. It's not that it's not exciting to travel with someone, but alone! I don't know why it's such a big deal. Maybe because I've used to be with Tarmo everywhere I go. Or that I'm not that experienced in traveling and I fear that I get lost (right...) or confused (could happen!) or I get so nervous that I can't speak English (right...) or I miss my flight (so what?) or or... I still know that this will develop me and I want to experience this. But it still scares me.
I know that traveling alone doesn't mean that I won't be social or get company on my way, I know that I will look so frightened that someone more experienced will come and chat with me, muaha! No, I mean that I'm so social that I'll chat with people anyway and that'll relieve my fears. I know that there will be other people who are just in the same situation that I'm in. And it's no point thinking (seriously) what if questions. If something happens then it happens.
I'm not so nervous about actually being at Iowa, not knowing anyone. Well, I almost know someones there. But whole new environment doesn't make me nervous. I know that there are so many other people who I'll meet who are just in the same situation, and I know how to get to the hotel, I'll get my breakfast there on Saturday morning and then my temporary roommate Paola will come and then, then we'll go to check out the city or something. But then I have someone who I can talk with. And it's not that I couldn't go and check out the city by myself but it's the company. And still the airports scare me. Not the flying itself but the airports. All the security checks make me nervous (as they're supposed to do I think) and as being control freak I fear that my tickets are wrong (aren't), my bags include something prohibited (don't), flights will be late (matters only if the flight from Helsinki to Dublin is hours late) or or or... And here I go again.
But still I need to think about these things. I still wait when I'll start crying to Tarmo that I'll miss him, I don't want to leave him and our cats and home, I want him to come with me. The hardest part of this exchange thing is that we'll be separated for four-five months. We're so close to each other and we are used to cuddle, chat and just be with each other every day. We'll still talk to each other every day in the internet but it's not the same. I need comfort and Tarmo gives it to me. But we'll manage. I can only wait the Christmas when he comes there.
And the kitties. I will miss them too, I'm so used to someone soft and warm to curl around my leg or back when I take nap or some black tail to sweep me now and then. Sigh. I will miss my friends and family too. But then again, it's only half a year. It goes by so fast and then I'm suddenly back.
I did this choice to go overseas. I did this choice to miss everyone (not that I could make a choice not to miss anyone, muaha). This is one of my dream come true. Oh I get so excited!
Today is going to be a hang over day though I don't have hang over. This means that I don't need to dress up or go to anywhere. I can just relax. Nice.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Dream Bag
Now how come everyone dies at the same time??? My mothers cousins dad just died. Olavi's brother. Sigh. But he (hopefully) is last of that generation, now there shouldn't be anyone who'd pass away of old age. He wasn't so close to me though that doesn't mean that I wouldn't mourn him.
I realized yesterday while I checked my flights (and realized that I really can't check them earlier that 48h before the departure) that I have a problem. I was supposed to carry with me a small suitcase, laptop bag and handbag. BUT I can have only my small suitcase AND ONE personal item which is laptop bag OR handbag... So I'll have to leave my handbag away and try to fit my papers etc stuff in that suitcase and it can weight only 6kg! My laptop is so heavy that I can't put it in the suitcase and the laptop bag is so small that I can't put my handbag stuff there. Did I explain my situation clear enough? I'm in trouble! I can't leave without handbag! Where am I supposed to carry my items when I'm in US? I could buy a new bag but I need time to find a PERFECT bag (though I'm bagaholic, I won't buy just ANY bag). Though if I leave my bag home that'd be a good reason to try to find my dream bag... I already found one from Helsinki but it cost over 100€... And I've been trying to find one almost a year! It's like this:
BUT brown and bigger and it has smocking like this bag:
And yes, I really have seen one! So my dream bag exists! Sigh. I feel so superficial. Muaha! Which reminds me of my another problem. My hairdryer. I can't take it either with me. I didn't pack it before because I thought it had fit into my suitcase but it turned out that it doesn't fit. But that isn't that big problem. My hairdryer isn't so good anymore so I'd need to buy new one anyway sometime... But the bag... By the way, these bags are Daniel Ray bags if someone wants to know.
I packed my suitcase yesterday and weighted it, I got 1kg away by leaving some papers away but it still weights 1kg too much. But I thought that I'll try again next week. Thought there isn't much stuff that I can leave anymore... I need to survive one week with that bag (and its contents) so I can't just leave clothes away (and I don't have many in that bag). And my cosmetics include only must-haves like shampoo etc and they're all samples! But I'll worry that again next week. My bag just weights alone so much... But I can't buy new one because I already have this one, it's red and I got it from my friends as a gift and I want to use it because it reminds me of my friends. Oh why is this so complicated?? And it really isn't, I just make it complicated.
But now that I wrote it down, maybe I'll leave my handbag and buy new one from Iowa. I'll buy new bags anyway, muaha! Yes. That I'll do. The bag weights quite much anyway... Problem solved.
It's beautiful weather outside, it's been ages since there was that beautiful and warm weather! And that suites me because I'm having my leaving party today and I'll keep it outside! We'll barbecue and when it gets cold and late we'll go to Rentukka.
And last but not least, me. I got ready almost an hour ago, still another to go before the party starts! I just needed to take a pic where my hair and makeup is fresh. Muaha! And I don't know why but it looks like my eyebrow had a scar. Though it is kind of bold from that spot, has always been. But there's no scar. But I kind of like it.
I realized yesterday while I checked my flights (and realized that I really can't check them earlier that 48h before the departure) that I have a problem. I was supposed to carry with me a small suitcase, laptop bag and handbag. BUT I can have only my small suitcase AND ONE personal item which is laptop bag OR handbag... So I'll have to leave my handbag away and try to fit my papers etc stuff in that suitcase and it can weight only 6kg! My laptop is so heavy that I can't put it in the suitcase and the laptop bag is so small that I can't put my handbag stuff there. Did I explain my situation clear enough? I'm in trouble! I can't leave without handbag! Where am I supposed to carry my items when I'm in US? I could buy a new bag but I need time to find a PERFECT bag (though I'm bagaholic, I won't buy just ANY bag). Though if I leave my bag home that'd be a good reason to try to find my dream bag... I already found one from Helsinki but it cost over 100€... And I've been trying to find one almost a year! It's like this:
BUT brown and bigger and it has smocking like this bag:
And yes, I really have seen one! So my dream bag exists! Sigh. I feel so superficial. Muaha! Which reminds me of my another problem. My hairdryer. I can't take it either with me. I didn't pack it before because I thought it had fit into my suitcase but it turned out that it doesn't fit. But that isn't that big problem. My hairdryer isn't so good anymore so I'd need to buy new one anyway sometime... But the bag... By the way, these bags are Daniel Ray bags if someone wants to know.I packed my suitcase yesterday and weighted it, I got 1kg away by leaving some papers away but it still weights 1kg too much. But I thought that I'll try again next week. Thought there isn't much stuff that I can leave anymore... I need to survive one week with that bag (and its contents) so I can't just leave clothes away (and I don't have many in that bag). And my cosmetics include only must-haves like shampoo etc and they're all samples! But I'll worry that again next week. My bag just weights alone so much... But I can't buy new one because I already have this one, it's red and I got it from my friends as a gift and I want to use it because it reminds me of my friends. Oh why is this so complicated?? And it really isn't, I just make it complicated.
But now that I wrote it down, maybe I'll leave my handbag and buy new one from Iowa. I'll buy new bags anyway, muaha! Yes. That I'll do. The bag weights quite much anyway... Problem solved.
It's beautiful weather outside, it's been ages since there was that beautiful and warm weather! And that suites me because I'm having my leaving party today and I'll keep it outside! We'll barbecue and when it gets cold and late we'll go to Rentukka.
And last but not least, me. I got ready almost an hour ago, still another to go before the party starts! I just needed to take a pic where my hair and makeup is fresh. Muaha! And I don't know why but it looks like my eyebrow had a scar. Though it is kind of bold from that spot, has always been. But there's no scar. But I kind of like it.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
On Vacation
I felt so grown up today! I was at the bank and I got some dollars and travelers checks. I've never had checks before. And I've never changed money at bank. I had to take a pic of my new money, muaha!
I used as a background our new pillowcases and pillows! I've been supposed to buy new pillows for ages since the old ones were quite bad already and then I had really wakening moment when we slept at Ilona's. Her pillows were so perfect that I thought, now! And they were expensive, 70€ each, but at 70% discount! I also bought pillowcases for them and new curtains to bedroom!
I'd like to have new shower curtain too because kitties tore the old one and it looks ugly. But I couldn't find any nice shower curtains! So I didn't buy new one.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm about to move away for six months and I can soon decorate my new room, but now I got this weird decoration boost and I'd like to have all kinds of new stuff in here! I already found sofa, tv surface, shelves, coffee table, dinner table and chairs, night table... Which means that I already renewed our house totally. I also dream of new curtains to our livingroom and new carpet... But I think we'll start to look those things when we get money somewhere. Tarmo already said that he trusts in my taste so that means no fighting! Muaha!
Yesterday we had a meeting where we went through my work. I didn't have enough time to go through all my pics but we wouldn't have had enough time to go through all of them anyway. But it cheered me up because I indeed got some results! I hadn't realized those things before, not that I had much time to think my work... I still need to edit the last pics and send Tuula some pics, then it's all done. But that can wait, I'm on vacation now!!! Finally!!! I washed our fridge and I thought I'd go through my exchange papers too today, or tonight. On Saturday I'll have my leaving party at our backyard. Then I'll just relax and enjoy Tarmo and kitties.
In a week I'll be at Iowa! Awful! Yet still wonderful! I still should call and reserve the transportation from the airport to the hotel and check my flights and pack bags. And check where I should be and what time when the orientation starts. I got a new ticket to my student card and there were lots of exchange students too. My tummy started to prickle...
But now I get back to arranging our stuff...
I used as a background our new pillowcases and pillows! I've been supposed to buy new pillows for ages since the old ones were quite bad already and then I had really wakening moment when we slept at Ilona's. Her pillows were so perfect that I thought, now! And they were expensive, 70€ each, but at 70% discount! I also bought pillowcases for them and new curtains to bedroom!
I'd like to have new shower curtain too because kitties tore the old one and it looks ugly. But I couldn't find any nice shower curtains! So I didn't buy new one.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm about to move away for six months and I can soon decorate my new room, but now I got this weird decoration boost and I'd like to have all kinds of new stuff in here! I already found sofa, tv surface, shelves, coffee table, dinner table and chairs, night table... Which means that I already renewed our house totally. I also dream of new curtains to our livingroom and new carpet... But I think we'll start to look those things when we get money somewhere. Tarmo already said that he trusts in my taste so that means no fighting! Muaha!
Yesterday we had a meeting where we went through my work. I didn't have enough time to go through all my pics but we wouldn't have had enough time to go through all of them anyway. But it cheered me up because I indeed got some results! I hadn't realized those things before, not that I had much time to think my work... I still need to edit the last pics and send Tuula some pics, then it's all done. But that can wait, I'm on vacation now!!! Finally!!! I washed our fridge and I thought I'd go through my exchange papers too today, or tonight. On Saturday I'll have my leaving party at our backyard. Then I'll just relax and enjoy Tarmo and kitties.
In a week I'll be at Iowa! Awful! Yet still wonderful! I still should call and reserve the transportation from the airport to the hotel and check my flights and pack bags. And check where I should be and what time when the orientation starts. I got a new ticket to my student card and there were lots of exchange students too. My tummy started to prickle...
But now I get back to arranging our stuff...
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