I really don't get it how these weeks keep passing by so quick! It's Friday again!
And only two days to go and we get engaged. I'm so happy!
We've planned the party a lot and we did rent Lillukka for us. Next week I'll have to do all the cakes and all. Luckily I have Thursday free and then I have time to do the food and cleaning.
This weekend I should read for the virology, I'll have an exam about it next Tuesday.
And I have such a problem. I don't know how I will do my hair and makeup, no to even mention my clothes! I thought I'd curl my hair and leave it free and do dark eye makeup since the lip makeup will wear out while I'm drinking and eating. And I'll put my new skirt but I don't know which shirt I'll wear! Well, maybe I'll figure it out.
I'm waiting the reply from the University of Iowa. I keep thinking that they won't take me there and I don't get the exchange place! I hope I get the information about it next week. They said that we'd know it on the beginning of April. And it is it then! And I try not to think about it. I just get too excited.
And I got my Master's Thesis lab BOOK! It's black and so nice! I covered it and made a piece of paper on it so it is easier to see what it is. It's SO nice! I feel like I'm doing something important when I write something in it. Though I have my old notebook where I scribble my notes while working, another notebook for my self (because the lab book won't be mine, it will go to my university). And it's nicer to write all my doings neatly so that I can memorize what I've done easier. And speaking of it, I should go and update my nice lab book and cover my note book...
Friday, March 30, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Up
She said for the first time that she knows she'll get over it.
And the exam was fine!
And I'm up too early if you think that it's Saturday morning!
And it's beautiful outside!
And the exam was fine!
And I'm up too early if you think that it's Saturday morning!
And it's beautiful outside!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Happy Angry
Finally I can say it!
We are getting engaged!!
And what an effort it has been not to blurt it out! I have already said something like:
"We got a gift for... err... dishes..."
"Oh I almost said it but didn't"
"What are you doing on Eastern? We have... err... party"
I am big mouthed but I kept it as a secret! Of course our parents were the first ones to know and to get invitation. And we sent the cards for our friends last week. But I still have to say that I hope that not everyone is coming. We don´t have that big apartment. And if everyone was coming, it would be over 50 person in small room! Because the kittens must be in our bedroom so that people with allergies can be here and because someone of the guests are smoking and if people are drunk, they might not notice if a cat sneaks out to the balcony and fells down! We're living at seventh floor!
We are planning though to rent Lillukka, so the kitties would not be a problem and we could get more space. And Rentukka would be closer. But still planning. It would help if I could know who all are coming!
But some bad news too. One of by best and oldest friends and his boyfriend broke up! I was and still am so sad. But the guy was an idiot and he disgusts me! My friend had already suspected something. This guy had been partying since the late Fall and he didn't want to take her with him anymore. He didn't come home at nights but went to after parties. He didn't care her anymore as he used to care. I already then thought that this process would be so hard for her because they have an apartment together, most of their stuff are common and his mom is hers boss! And he already has a kind of place where to move in but she doesn't have.
Oh I cried so much after her call. I was playing like every Monday and went outside to talk to her and after a marathon call I cried to Tarmo so much that all got worried what had happened. And Vepa said that if I need to talk, I could talk to her. It was so sweet! I was sad but I was OK.
I called her every day and asked how she was. I was so proud of her (and still am) because she said she is sad and she still can't believe what had happened and she wouldn't like to leave him but she knows she has to. And she told me she is afraid that she can't let go. And I told her that I know she is strong! But still I was a bit worried if she couldn't let go. And even though I hated him for the grief he caused, I knew that this kind of things happen and it´s better to stop a relationship if people aren't happy in it anymore.
BUT last Monday I called her again and she was crying. She had read his messages from his cell phone and found like 200 messages from a girl! And he had sworn that there wasn't anyone else. Oh NOW I hate that guy! He had all the guts to get angry with her reading his messages! Yes, it is wrong but it was right in this situation! DAMN! I get all angry even thinking what happened.
He was explaining that it didn't mean anything for him and he was just laughing that girl with his friends. But the messages were from January to this day! JANUARY! FUCK!!!
GOD HE PISSES ME OFF!
HOW DOES HE DARE! HOW DOES HE DARE TO LIE IN A SUCH WAY! ARGH!
I can't write everything I think about this situation. But the point is that if I had been there I would've punched him. Or shaked him and yelled at him. I mean it. I'm not a violent person but I really got THAT angry. And still get angry when I think that. Did I already say it?
I don't know if they have already discussed about it and what has happened since because I tried to call her yesterday and she sent me a message saying she's too tired to talk about it. I said to her that she has to call me soon back. And promised that if she doesn't I will call. She hasn't called yet and if she doesn't call by tomorrow, I'll call. I need her to know that I care and that she can talk to me. I try not to judge anyone but can you blame me if I said something bad about him after last Monday?
But now I got all angry again so I'll change the subject.
It was funny today. There was a presentation in our department about a molecular biology corporation and the man in there thought that I had my own research group. It was so funny that I didn't correct him but kept talking like a real researcher. And it was real fun to act like a researcher! Even though I'm planning my own research and I'm going to try new things which haven't been tried before, I still don't think myself as a researcher. I'm just a student who can't do anything and who doesn't know anything. Even though people seem to assume that I know things, I think I don't. I've realized that the more I study the stupider I become and the less I know. I know, a common dilemma in science.
And back to the engagement thing. I'm kind of disappointed about the reactions we got when we told to our friends. We got few really nice reactions (and by this I mean the surprise it was meant to be). But most of people have only thanked about the invitation. Like the supposed this to happen? I don't know.
Tarmo got his new computer parts yesterday and he has been working on them since then (he did sleep at night though). He got even a "guru" friend here to help him today. And he's all smile. I can't help it but he's so cute when he gets this excited. And after his new machine is all ready, I get the old computer for playing. (Yes, I play games! The Sims 2 is quite addictive, my newest addiction is Civilization 4, though I play only at weekends.) But the problem is that we don't have an extra screen but Dad bought a new flat screen so I get his old one. What a coincidence!
I have a quite big sore bruise on my arm. I have no idea where it has become. And my back got jammed in the Monday sports. But it's already better. What else? I didn't menstruate last week like usual (no details about it). Anything else about my health? Muaha. Like the old peoples conversation.
I've been waking up quite early and have been able to read enough for the next exam about virology. Not that much to read which is nice. But it worries me because I think the course is easy, so I would suppose to get 5 from it (the best grade). And if I don't I get all disappointed on me again. I should write an essay for one course to get it through (no exam). And then I have still two laboratory courses this Spring. The other starts next week. It had a pre-exam and I believe (and hope) it went well.
But I think I have already written too much. How many of you read this this far?? Muaha.
We are getting engaged!!
And what an effort it has been not to blurt it out! I have already said something like:
"We got a gift for... err... dishes..."
"Oh I almost said it but didn't"
"What are you doing on Eastern? We have... err... party"
I am big mouthed but I kept it as a secret! Of course our parents were the first ones to know and to get invitation. And we sent the cards for our friends last week. But I still have to say that I hope that not everyone is coming. We don´t have that big apartment. And if everyone was coming, it would be over 50 person in small room! Because the kittens must be in our bedroom so that people with allergies can be here and because someone of the guests are smoking and if people are drunk, they might not notice if a cat sneaks out to the balcony and fells down! We're living at seventh floor!
We are planning though to rent Lillukka, so the kitties would not be a problem and we could get more space. And Rentukka would be closer. But still planning. It would help if I could know who all are coming!
But some bad news too. One of by best and oldest friends and his boyfriend broke up! I was and still am so sad. But the guy was an idiot and he disgusts me! My friend had already suspected something. This guy had been partying since the late Fall and he didn't want to take her with him anymore. He didn't come home at nights but went to after parties. He didn't care her anymore as he used to care. I already then thought that this process would be so hard for her because they have an apartment together, most of their stuff are common and his mom is hers boss! And he already has a kind of place where to move in but she doesn't have.
Oh I cried so much after her call. I was playing like every Monday and went outside to talk to her and after a marathon call I cried to Tarmo so much that all got worried what had happened. And Vepa said that if I need to talk, I could talk to her. It was so sweet! I was sad but I was OK.
I called her every day and asked how she was. I was so proud of her (and still am) because she said she is sad and she still can't believe what had happened and she wouldn't like to leave him but she knows she has to. And she told me she is afraid that she can't let go. And I told her that I know she is strong! But still I was a bit worried if she couldn't let go. And even though I hated him for the grief he caused, I knew that this kind of things happen and it´s better to stop a relationship if people aren't happy in it anymore.
BUT last Monday I called her again and she was crying. She had read his messages from his cell phone and found like 200 messages from a girl! And he had sworn that there wasn't anyone else. Oh NOW I hate that guy! He had all the guts to get angry with her reading his messages! Yes, it is wrong but it was right in this situation! DAMN! I get all angry even thinking what happened.
He was explaining that it didn't mean anything for him and he was just laughing that girl with his friends. But the messages were from January to this day! JANUARY! FUCK!!!
GOD HE PISSES ME OFF!
HOW DOES HE DARE! HOW DOES HE DARE TO LIE IN A SUCH WAY! ARGH!
I can't write everything I think about this situation. But the point is that if I had been there I would've punched him. Or shaked him and yelled at him. I mean it. I'm not a violent person but I really got THAT angry. And still get angry when I think that. Did I already say it?
I don't know if they have already discussed about it and what has happened since because I tried to call her yesterday and she sent me a message saying she's too tired to talk about it. I said to her that she has to call me soon back. And promised that if she doesn't I will call. She hasn't called yet and if she doesn't call by tomorrow, I'll call. I need her to know that I care and that she can talk to me. I try not to judge anyone but can you blame me if I said something bad about him after last Monday?
But now I got all angry again so I'll change the subject.
It was funny today. There was a presentation in our department about a molecular biology corporation and the man in there thought that I had my own research group. It was so funny that I didn't correct him but kept talking like a real researcher. And it was real fun to act like a researcher! Even though I'm planning my own research and I'm going to try new things which haven't been tried before, I still don't think myself as a researcher. I'm just a student who can't do anything and who doesn't know anything. Even though people seem to assume that I know things, I think I don't. I've realized that the more I study the stupider I become and the less I know. I know, a common dilemma in science.
And back to the engagement thing. I'm kind of disappointed about the reactions we got when we told to our friends. We got few really nice reactions (and by this I mean the surprise it was meant to be). But most of people have only thanked about the invitation. Like the supposed this to happen? I don't know.
Tarmo got his new computer parts yesterday and he has been working on them since then (he did sleep at night though). He got even a "guru" friend here to help him today. And he's all smile. I can't help it but he's so cute when he gets this excited. And after his new machine is all ready, I get the old computer for playing. (Yes, I play games! The Sims 2 is quite addictive, my newest addiction is Civilization 4, though I play only at weekends.) But the problem is that we don't have an extra screen but Dad bought a new flat screen so I get his old one. What a coincidence!
I have a quite big sore bruise on my arm. I have no idea where it has become. And my back got jammed in the Monday sports. But it's already better. What else? I didn't menstruate last week like usual (no details about it). Anything else about my health? Muaha. Like the old peoples conversation.
I've been waking up quite early and have been able to read enough for the next exam about virology. Not that much to read which is nice. But it worries me because I think the course is easy, so I would suppose to get 5 from it (the best grade). And if I don't I get all disappointed on me again. I should write an essay for one course to get it through (no exam). And then I have still two laboratory courses this Spring. The other starts next week. It had a pre-exam and I believe (and hope) it went well.
But I think I have already written too much. How many of you read this this far?? Muaha.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Cell explosion
I already started a new post few days ago but I didn't have the time to finish it. And it was only few sentences.
I got some news today about the exchange! ISEP sent my application to The University of Iowa! I browsed their web pages three hours today. I've planned my courses, at least what I'm trying to take. I also found out where I'm going (hopefully) live. And some other information too. After three hours I finally found when I'm supposed to be in the USA. 13th August is The Day. But I have to go there few days earlier because that day is the final day. And Monday. I think I might leave Finland on Thursday or Friday. Depends on flights. Though I can't seek them yet because I'm not 110% sure they're going to get me. And I don't know if someone is coming to get me from the airport or where I'm going to live that weekend (at the resident houses already, in motel/hotel or someones place?). But I try not to think much about it yet. When I get to know if they take me, I get a boost and get all excited. And that's the time I can do all those things. As well as to get my insurance etc.
Still so much things to do.
We'll represent our poster tomorrow! And then the EM-course is over. On Monday I'll have a pre-exam about our next laboratory course which will begin a week after the exam. And I took Jonnas SH-SY5Y cells to be cultured again. We're going to test the methods with them which I'm going to use for my Masters Thesis with some fresher cells. And something really dangerous happened! Our lab master Pirjo gave us the cells because I wasn't sure where they are and how to handle the vessel. And one of the cell ampulles exploded!!! I scared so much! And I was really close. Luckily nothing happened for anyone. But there could have been some cancer cells, bacteria or viruses in that ampulle! And the DMSO isn't that safe either.
I'm not sure if I said this already but my first room mate ever (Silja) answered to my mail! And it really was she! It was so nice.
I bought a webcam yesterday and were in Tupperware party. Of course I can't afford to buy anything but it still was fun.
What else... Tuula came back and was (and still is) really tired. I try to not disturb her much. I've been trying to do all the things my self as I can. I found the antibodies for us to use and the secondary antibodies too. And found out where the cells are and so on.
And she wrote to Michael and asked if I and Tarmo could go there after my exchange period. And it's okay! So nice!
But I lost my thoughts again. I thought this spring would've been easy (well it is compared to last Fall) but I've spent 10 hours almost every day at the university! Today we were home at 7.30pm so I'm really tired.
I was supposed to say something else too but I forgot what it was.
I got some news today about the exchange! ISEP sent my application to The University of Iowa! I browsed their web pages three hours today. I've planned my courses, at least what I'm trying to take. I also found out where I'm going (hopefully) live. And some other information too. After three hours I finally found when I'm supposed to be in the USA. 13th August is The Day. But I have to go there few days earlier because that day is the final day. And Monday. I think I might leave Finland on Thursday or Friday. Depends on flights. Though I can't seek them yet because I'm not 110% sure they're going to get me. And I don't know if someone is coming to get me from the airport or where I'm going to live that weekend (at the resident houses already, in motel/hotel or someones place?). But I try not to think much about it yet. When I get to know if they take me, I get a boost and get all excited. And that's the time I can do all those things. As well as to get my insurance etc.
Still so much things to do.
We'll represent our poster tomorrow! And then the EM-course is over. On Monday I'll have a pre-exam about our next laboratory course which will begin a week after the exam. And I took Jonnas SH-SY5Y cells to be cultured again. We're going to test the methods with them which I'm going to use for my Masters Thesis with some fresher cells. And something really dangerous happened! Our lab master Pirjo gave us the cells because I wasn't sure where they are and how to handle the vessel. And one of the cell ampulles exploded!!! I scared so much! And I was really close. Luckily nothing happened for anyone. But there could have been some cancer cells, bacteria or viruses in that ampulle! And the DMSO isn't that safe either.
I'm not sure if I said this already but my first room mate ever (Silja) answered to my mail! And it really was she! It was so nice.
I bought a webcam yesterday and were in Tupperware party. Of course I can't afford to buy anything but it still was fun.
What else... Tuula came back and was (and still is) really tired. I try to not disturb her much. I've been trying to do all the things my self as I can. I found the antibodies for us to use and the secondary antibodies too. And found out where the cells are and so on.
And she wrote to Michael and asked if I and Tarmo could go there after my exchange period. And it's okay! So nice!
But I lost my thoughts again. I thought this spring would've been easy (well it is compared to last Fall) but I've spent 10 hours almost every day at the university! Today we were home at 7.30pm so I'm really tired.
I was supposed to say something else too but I forgot what it was.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Nice
It's been a while again. Nothing new I suppose. Tuula is in Biophysichs meeting in the USA so I've had plenty of time to read articles for my Master's Thesis. Though I did nothing for it in weekend and not much on Friday either. But today I read a lot.
Weekend was fun. Tomppeli had a party for his "new" home (don't know what tuparit is in English). We drank a lot and were drunken but it was so fun! We went to Rentukka and back at his place. We were home at four. And I didn't even have a bad hangover! My head ace a bit but not too much. And I felt tired but not too much. Enough to say to myself that I can't do anything. So we watched The Simpsons and ate (Chiang Mae-soup, my favourite!!!) and went to watch stupid movie to Apen (Snakes on a Plane). Movie sucked but it still was fun. If we had watched it just two of us, we would've bored but now there was more people to laugh with.
Elina and Me
Weekend was fun. Tomppeli had a party for his "new" home (don't know what tuparit is in English). We drank a lot and were drunken but it was so fun! We went to Rentukka and back at his place. We were home at four. And I didn't even have a bad hangover! My head ace a bit but not too much. And I felt tired but not too much. Enough to say to myself that I can't do anything. So we watched The Simpsons and ate (Chiang Mae-soup, my favourite!!!) and went to watch stupid movie to Apen (Snakes on a Plane). Movie sucked but it still was fun. If we had watched it just two of us, we would've bored but now there was more people to laugh with.
Elina and MeElina was there too. She's so cute.
And here is a pic of me and Tarmo (kind of cute too).
Love
So it was nice weekend. We were supposed to play role playing games today (as every Monday) but Tomppeli is sick (and he's the Gameleader for the game we're playing). So we're home. I was lazy last week and didn't go to gym in any day! I was supposed to go there on Monday but I didn't make it since I was planning the area I talked last time. And it was so nice again! The gym I mean.
But since I don't have nothing new, I'll stop now. I'll tell something nice when it's time. Muaha.
Oh, by the way, Spring is coming. It's warm and sun is shining (warmingly too!) and all the colors are bright and the birds are singing! So nice!
And here is a pic of me and Tarmo (kind of cute too).
Love So it was nice weekend. We were supposed to play role playing games today (as every Monday) but Tomppeli is sick (and he's the Gameleader for the game we're playing). So we're home. I was lazy last week and didn't go to gym in any day! I was supposed to go there on Monday but I didn't make it since I was planning the area I talked last time. And it was so nice again! The gym I mean.
But since I don't have nothing new, I'll stop now. I'll tell something nice when it's time. Muaha.
Oh, by the way, Spring is coming. It's warm and sun is shining (warmingly too!) and all the colors are bright and the birds are singing! So nice!
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