I'm sorry, I've been lazy. I have had the time to write but I haven't been in the mood.
There's nothing much new going on. I have one lab course that bursts my neuronal cells. Flow cytometry, where we have three lab times and need to write three reports AND we have practical exam after those three times. And I really didn't understand those graphs we got out (I did know what they ment but I couldn't wrtie a thing about them), I needed to stare at those pics for hours and hours and now I need to write a the second report today. I also should get my theisis to a point that I could give it to the first check. But as the lab course needed so much of my time and made my head ache, I haven't been able to write it. I'll try to do something during next week after I'm done with the third lab report. Though it does look quite good already, there's enough pages, lots of results and some new things too, and I have some ideas...
I'm still being most of the time lazy during the weekends. We do some laundry, clean the house and cook. Then I watch Tarmo playing or play Sims2, sometimes go to my friends place to sing Singstars or have party. Though I haven't been drinking much. I got another phone bill and now I can't afford to eat at the university. Luckily I don't have such a courses that I had to be 8 h at the university, if I have long day (ie 6 h) I do something to eat at home and take it with me. I already got bored (after almost two months, not a surprise...) to the food I made (pasta/noodels with crushed soy and dried mushrooms with some random sauce) and I bought potatoes and made soup. I also found some very cheap fish rissoles (yummy!) that had their last date but I put them in the freezer. So that's my food for the next two weeks, after that I need to make something else... But I don't mind cooking. I love it. And now I can be at home (most of the time) and decide my own rythm. It's nice. Though I do go to do some sports almost every day (except during weekends) and sometimes I go to see my friends at the university (and drink coffee with them). So, nothing new.
I had a really bad day at the beginning of this week. Or evening to be proper. After a long day at the university I got home and there was the bill waiting for me. That got me in the bad mood because I realized then that now I can't afford to go and get my driving licence this Spring/Summer. That was my dream as long as I had the money but now I don't have it anymore... I don't know if I have time to go and do the lisence later, as the PhD studies will take so much time and I'm going to continue the taekwondo. It makes me sad because I would've wanted to be a driver too so that Tarmo wouldn't always need to drive, as we need to buy a car this year. Anyway, because of this bill I was getting really mad at myself and snapped to our kitties :( Then I felt so bad because really they didn't do anything THAT bad, went to bed and soon Tarmo joined me. He noticed immediately that I was miserable and just hugged me for few hours and I cried. (It made me feel even worse as it didn't make me feel better, I just kept Tarmo awake too...) Finally he fell asleep. I slept for few hours and felt miserable the next day too. Then I made some desicions and I felt better.
It's always money that makes me sad. I'm so used to deal with my things in a way that I have money to eat. And I've always had some savings to use if my other money isn't enough. Now I had made so much savings that I could go and get my drivings lisence and then I had to take money from there. I could continue to save money there but now there's no money I could save from as I need every penny of the money I get in order to eat. And after I get the paycheck, I need to pay my student loan and we need to buy few new furnitures and the car. And after we have all that, I'll start saving to a new computer (as this one is getting in the point that it will break soon) and then I'm going to start to save for our own apartment. And then it's what, 2012?? And at least then we need to move to a new (hopefully our own) apartment and need to start paying apartment loan back. Argh loans make me feel like I didn't have money at all! I hate when I need to loan money. But I understand that I need to get the loans if I ever want to live in an apartment of my own. And me want to!
Yeah, big problems again. See, this is why I don't write, I start brain storming and then I have a book. Bah. And I'm not in money problems. As I said, I have savings. I just don't want to use them :D But I will, I love food and eating too much to stop it ;)
I really need to get some clothes on and finish my breakfast and start writing the damned report. Oh yeah! One really good thing has happened, I've lost some weight! And I'm starting to get back in shape, yey!
ps. Sorry for the misspellings, I'm too lazy to check...
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Blah.
I know it's been ages, I've just been too "busy" meaning that I've been too lazy... I have done some work for my thesis, of course. But not too much yet... I'm still not in the mood for writing, so I'll just tell shortly what's going on.
I've done one essay for one course to get the points and done things to get my courses from Iowa to my degree. And on Thursday we went to a bar with Tarmo to have some drinks with couple of professors from our university, that was fun!
We also visited Kuopio again to see Tarmo's possible future boss. Though it was really weird from the beginning. First in the morning Tarmo wrote an e-mail to him asking when could they meet and he answered that he's there the same day. Tarmo replied and said what time we'll be there (we went by train) and asked where should he go. He just replied that give me a call. We had to leave soon after that and he never told where to go. So on our way to Kuopio Tarmo tried to call him but he didn't answer. When we arrived to Kuopio, still no answer. We thought that we need to eat something quickly if Tarmo needs to be soon somewhere else. But again, even though Tarmo called every half an hour to him, he never answered. Tarmo even tried to check his e-mail with my phone but it didn't work out. We started looking the center of Kuopio, browsing in the shops. Finally around three he callet to Tarmo, said an address and didn't even answer when Tarmo asked the name of the company. So at four they met (I was with Kaisa) and in five minutes it was over. He didn't even take Tarmo inside but talked with him outside! He didn't remember where Tarmo was from (he graduated from the same university and Tarmo had said that before) and his answer was "we don't take graduated people"!!! WHAT?? And Tarmo very clearly said that he's graduating and his reply was "we always need physichist".
I said to Tarmo that good that he didn't take Tarmo, he seems to be way too weird to be a good boss. But it still pisses me off, this all could've been figured out by e-mail, it cost us some money to go to Kuopio all for nothing, and it cost us a work day AND we didn't even have time to go to taekwondo since it was already too late when we got back home. So stupid...
So, this weekend we've just relaxed, cleaned the house, played with kitties etc etc. Feels good to do nothing, for a change. Though I need to do some work for the thesis to get my results done, I've finished Matherials and Methods, almost done with Results, and started to read articles for the introduction and to do some research... So I'm not in panic and my thesis has already some pages done...
But that's how things are here. No deeper analysis about my daily life. :P
I've done one essay for one course to get the points and done things to get my courses from Iowa to my degree. And on Thursday we went to a bar with Tarmo to have some drinks with couple of professors from our university, that was fun!
We also visited Kuopio again to see Tarmo's possible future boss. Though it was really weird from the beginning. First in the morning Tarmo wrote an e-mail to him asking when could they meet and he answered that he's there the same day. Tarmo replied and said what time we'll be there (we went by train) and asked where should he go. He just replied that give me a call. We had to leave soon after that and he never told where to go. So on our way to Kuopio Tarmo tried to call him but he didn't answer. When we arrived to Kuopio, still no answer. We thought that we need to eat something quickly if Tarmo needs to be soon somewhere else. But again, even though Tarmo called every half an hour to him, he never answered. Tarmo even tried to check his e-mail with my phone but it didn't work out. We started looking the center of Kuopio, browsing in the shops. Finally around three he callet to Tarmo, said an address and didn't even answer when Tarmo asked the name of the company. So at four they met (I was with Kaisa) and in five minutes it was over. He didn't even take Tarmo inside but talked with him outside! He didn't remember where Tarmo was from (he graduated from the same university and Tarmo had said that before) and his answer was "we don't take graduated people"!!! WHAT?? And Tarmo very clearly said that he's graduating and his reply was "we always need physichist".
I said to Tarmo that good that he didn't take Tarmo, he seems to be way too weird to be a good boss. But it still pisses me off, this all could've been figured out by e-mail, it cost us some money to go to Kuopio all for nothing, and it cost us a work day AND we didn't even have time to go to taekwondo since it was already too late when we got back home. So stupid...
So, this weekend we've just relaxed, cleaned the house, played with kitties etc etc. Feels good to do nothing, for a change. Though I need to do some work for the thesis to get my results done, I've finished Matherials and Methods, almost done with Results, and started to read articles for the introduction and to do some research... So I'm not in panic and my thesis has already some pages done...
But that's how things are here. No deeper analysis about my daily life. :P
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Baby is (are) Back
So, I'm back in here.
I've gotten myself in order, no more waking up at 2 am, no rash and I have been doing few things for my future too! Life in Finland is easy. I don't feel weird, I love being back home. We got our babies back yesterday too and I love the feeling when someone comes and wipes his/hers tail against my leg ^^ Though they've grown up so much!
I'm having tomorrow my welcome back party, my friends arranget everything and it feels so weird because I don't know what's been planned and what should I do...
But as I'm not in the mood for writing much today, I'll just briefly tell what's going on.
I'm writing an essay for one course I couldn't do before but which I need to do for my degree. After that's done I'll return for my results and try to make some kind of picture of my work in my head and after that I'll start writing. I also should go to nurse to get last of my hepatite vaccination done, get my courses from Iowa in my degree and send some flights to insurance company. My first course is beginning only next month so I have some time to do all these little things though I've planned to get my Introduction mostly done by the time the course begins. Luckily it's only two weeks and labs, after that I'll return to writing and I should get my thesis done as soon as possible, as I need to do two book exams after that (one is exam about the literature I used and one is THE final examination in cell biology). I'll have my other course on April-May I think and I hope that by that time my thesis would be quite ready as I'm having the seminar course and I need to give a representation of my work by then. And after that I should find a place to do a short internship so that I could get all the needed courses for my degree and then I'd be kind of ready!
And the reason for horrying things up is that I'm moving to Kuopio with Tarmo next Summer!!! I GOT THE PLACE! I mean in the research group and I'll start as soon as I'm done in here. I'm quite happy ^^ They promised that there would be a place for me for the next 4-5 years!
And as Tarmo is graduating too, there's no problem moving away. And he has his things almost in order too...
But as I finally updated my stuff in here, I can go sleeping soon...
Oh how I love having our kitties back!!!
I've gotten myself in order, no more waking up at 2 am, no rash and I have been doing few things for my future too! Life in Finland is easy. I don't feel weird, I love being back home. We got our babies back yesterday too and I love the feeling when someone comes and wipes his/hers tail against my leg ^^ Though they've grown up so much!
I'm having tomorrow my welcome back party, my friends arranget everything and it feels so weird because I don't know what's been planned and what should I do...
But as I'm not in the mood for writing much today, I'll just briefly tell what's going on.
I'm writing an essay for one course I couldn't do before but which I need to do for my degree. After that's done I'll return for my results and try to make some kind of picture of my work in my head and after that I'll start writing. I also should go to nurse to get last of my hepatite vaccination done, get my courses from Iowa in my degree and send some flights to insurance company. My first course is beginning only next month so I have some time to do all these little things though I've planned to get my Introduction mostly done by the time the course begins. Luckily it's only two weeks and labs, after that I'll return to writing and I should get my thesis done as soon as possible, as I need to do two book exams after that (one is exam about the literature I used and one is THE final examination in cell biology). I'll have my other course on April-May I think and I hope that by that time my thesis would be quite ready as I'm having the seminar course and I need to give a representation of my work by then. And after that I should find a place to do a short internship so that I could get all the needed courses for my degree and then I'd be kind of ready!
And the reason for horrying things up is that I'm moving to Kuopio with Tarmo next Summer!!! I GOT THE PLACE! I mean in the research group and I'll start as soon as I'm done in here. I'm quite happy ^^ They promised that there would be a place for me for the next 4-5 years!
And as Tarmo is graduating too, there's no problem moving away. And he has his things almost in order too...
But as I finally updated my stuff in here, I can go sleeping soon...
Oh how I love having our kitties back!!!
Thursday, December 06, 2007
New Motivation Post
This time I've found the things I really really want:
For livingroom:
in this way.
And...
And for kitchen:
this (DINE, 436e + 4 x 59e, ISKU)...
or this (TYYNI, 487e, ISKU) but with previous chairs or with these chairs:
I love dreaming! :>
For livingroom:
this (FUTURE, around 1670e, ISKU)...
and this (FUTURE, 999e, ISKU) but...
in this way.And...
this but with the fabric showed in here (Kulmadivaani Pal KD-023, 1199e, Kalustekauppa)
And for kitchen:
this (DINE, 436e + 4 x 59e, ISKU)...
or this (TYYNI, 487e, ISKU) but with previous chairs or with these chairs:
(PEPPER, 4 x 39e, ISKU) though I'm not sure about this as the legs are quite different from the legs of the table...
Oh God why oh WHY do I have to have so expensive taste?? Though, ISKU furniture are expensive but they last forever... And the couch is also a bed so that's why it's so expensive.
I love dreaming! :>
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Yöllinen keskustelu #kortexilla
Sorry, this is in Finnish...
03:31 <@pokemon> mmpåp
03:33 <@Fencist> where's the love
03:34Juulia_151 no ei ainakaan täällä!
03:34 <@pokemon> höh
03:34 -!- Diablesse [~Diablesse@jenni.kortex.jyu.fi] has quit [""]
03:34 <@pokemon> katonny mitä teit
03:34 <@pokemon> gimme some lööööv
03:35 Juulia_151 en!
03:35 <@pokemon> pässi!
03:35Juulia_151 hammasharja!
03:35 <@pokemon> repskukkuu
03:36Juulia_151 kotkot
03:36 <@pokemon> sä mitään mitään tajua
03:37 <@pokemon> koittasit ny vähän ees täristä samaan tahtiin!
03:37Juulia_151 pässi!
03:37 <@pokemon> hammasharja!
03:37 Juulia_151 etkö sie nyt usko ettei se onnistu!
03:37 <@pokemon> e
03:37 <@pokemon> :>
03:37Juulia_151 pässi!
03:37 <@pokemon> sain sut jo iskettyä NYCin metrossa sänkyyn kolmeks yöks
03:37 <@pokemon> emmä niin vaan luovuta :P
03:38 Juulia_151 ja viiminen yö vielä saman peiton allakin :D
03:38 <@pokemon> NI!
03:38 <@pokemon> ja sit loppu se loma :(
03:38 Juulia_151 niih...
03:38 <@pokemon> pitää taas nukkua yksin peiton alla :(((
03:38Juulia_151 :(
03:38 <@pokemon> ha, eipäs pidäkään!
03:38 Juulia_151 ja täristä eri tahtiin
03:38 <@pokemon> mulla onki kisu!
03:38 <@pokemon> HA
03:39 <@pokemon> no ei se mitään vaikka eri tahtiin täristään kunhan muistetaan vetää välillä henkeä...
03:39 Juulia_151 niih... se on tärkeintä...
03:39 <@pokemon> ni
03:39 <@pokemon> ettäs tiiät pässi
03:39 <@pokemon> !
03:39Juulia_151 hamamsharja
03:39 <@pokemon> hoho
03:39 <@pokemon> et osannu
03:39 Juulia_151 oho...
03:39 Juulia_151 osaaminen <3>
pulla Anteeksi nyt tytöt, mutta jos ette koe saavanne tarpeeks rakkautta niin mä voin auttaa.
03:40 <@pokemon> :>
03:40 <@pokemon> ihan varmasti
03:40 <@pokemon> ootko oikeella puolella atlanttia?
03:40pulla oon. te ootte vaan vääräl.
03:40 <@pokemon> :D
03:40 <@pokemon> no se on kyl totta
03:41 <@pokemon> täytyy sit vaan oottaa kiltisti kolme viikkoa ja kolme
päivää...
03:41 Juulia_151 mut en mie kyllä usko että pulla osaa täristä samaan
tahtiin...
03:41 <@pokemon> :D
03:41 <@pokemon> joo kato tää tärinä vaatii kaks jänistä
03:42Juulia_151 :D
03:43pulla nyt jopa minä, joka luulin omistavani kieron mielen, tippu
kärryiltä
03:43 :D
03:43 <@pokemon> :D
03:31 <@pokemon> mmpåp
03:33 <@Fencist> where's the love
03:34
03:34 <@pokemon> höh
03:34 -!- Diablesse [~Diablesse@jenni.kortex.jyu.fi] has quit [""]
03:34 <@pokemon> katonny mitä teit
03:34 <@pokemon> gimme some lööööv
03:35 Juulia_151
03:35 <@pokemon> pässi!
03:35
03:35 <@pokemon> repskukkuu
03:36
03:36 <@pokemon> sä mitään mitään tajua
03:37 <@pokemon> koittasit ny vähän ees täristä samaan tahtiin!
03:37
03:37 <@pokemon> hammasharja!
03:37
03:37 <@pokemon> e
03:37 <@pokemon> :>
03:37
03:37 <@pokemon> sain sut jo iskettyä NYCin metrossa sänkyyn kolmeks yöks
03:37 <@pokemon> emmä niin vaan luovuta :P
03:38 Juulia_151
03:38 <@pokemon> NI!
03:38 <@pokemon> ja sit loppu se loma :(
03:38 Juulia_151
03:38 <@pokemon> pitää taas nukkua yksin peiton alla :(((
03:38
03:38 <@pokemon> ha, eipäs pidäkään!
03:38 Juulia_151
03:38 <@pokemon> mulla onki kisu!
03:38 <@pokemon> HA
03:39 <@pokemon> no ei se mitään vaikka eri tahtiin täristään kunhan muistetaan vetää välillä henkeä...
03:39 Juulia_151
03:39 <@pokemon> ni
03:39 <@pokemon> ettäs tiiät pässi
03:39 <@pokemon> !
03:39
03:39 <@pokemon> hoho
03:39 <@pokemon> et osannu
03:39 Juulia_151
03:39
03:40 <@pokemon> :>
03:40 <@pokemon> ihan varmasti
03:40 <@pokemon> ootko oikeella puolella atlanttia?
03:40
03:40 <@pokemon> :D
03:40 <@pokemon> no se on kyl totta
03:41 <@pokemon> täytyy sit vaan oottaa kiltisti kolme viikkoa ja kolme
päivää...
03:41 Juulia_151
tahtiin...
03:41 <@pokemon> :D
03:41 <@pokemon> joo kato tää tärinä vaatii kaks jänistä
03:42
03:43
kärryiltä
03:43
03:43 <@pokemon> :D
Monday, September 17, 2007
Motivation Post
Noresund night table 19€
Detolf showcase 49€
Lack TV stand 59€
Lack Table 49€ 
Mysinge couch 720€
Hedda carpet 199€
Laver kitchen table and chairs 89€All were from ikea.com
Plus new curtains and book cases and computer tables and shelves and and... Oh yeah, Tarmo says which car we get. And the drivers license. See?? I need money! I need a job! I need to graduate!
STUDY HARD! WORK HARD!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Something's in the Air
I'm just goofing around my two blogs, and write every other day to the other so that I don't seem to be so bored, muaha!
Now our house is clean, I even washed the floor! Laundry is still drying and I can't pack my bags ready until I get all my clothes from there (well, one skirt). Vepa will dye my hair today, so that it looks fine again. Now my own color starts to show way too much.
I didn't sleep this morning enough (as I haven't slept all week), everybody just keeps calling and messaging me and I always wake up because of them and can't sleep. On Monday it was Taru, yesterday it was mom and today Tuula. Hope I could sleep late enough tomorrow... Because I can't go bed earlier that 3 am because I'm not tired!
Our cats seem to realize that something's in the air. They come to me all the time, and they usually don't come so often! Last night I almost got my first leaving tear in my eye when we went to bed and chatted about my leaving. So now it starts. I bet I'll cry this night (for some reason I cry more easily at night than at daytime) or tomorrow.
Oh god! I just realized that next night will be my last night in my home for a while... Maybe I should go bed early just to goof around with Tarmo. And try to stay there as long as possible on the morning... Because I just love our bed! It's the best place in the world when Tarmo lies there beside me. And I have to play with our cats the whole night because then it's cool enough and they're active. Now they're just sleeping and trying to find the coolest place in here.
And tomorrow I'll leave to Tampere, we'll see Reija at Matkakeskus and I'll give her my key so that she can take care of our babies for the weekend. I'm a bit sad because I didn't see all my friends before leaving though I still try to keep in mind that half a year goes by quickly.
I think this is the last post I'll write in here for a while, so check out my exchange blog if you're interested how's life going at the other side of the sea. (Feels strange to say that.)
ps. Tarmo gave me the red network cable, I asked if we had one spare for me to take with me, he gave me blue, I asked that didn't we have red one somewhere, it was in use but he replaced it with the blue one so that I could have the red one. I just love that man! He didn't even argue, muaha!
Now our house is clean, I even washed the floor! Laundry is still drying and I can't pack my bags ready until I get all my clothes from there (well, one skirt). Vepa will dye my hair today, so that it looks fine again. Now my own color starts to show way too much.
I didn't sleep this morning enough (as I haven't slept all week), everybody just keeps calling and messaging me and I always wake up because of them and can't sleep. On Monday it was Taru, yesterday it was mom and today Tuula. Hope I could sleep late enough tomorrow... Because I can't go bed earlier that 3 am because I'm not tired!
Our cats seem to realize that something's in the air. They come to me all the time, and they usually don't come so often! Last night I almost got my first leaving tear in my eye when we went to bed and chatted about my leaving. So now it starts. I bet I'll cry this night (for some reason I cry more easily at night than at daytime) or tomorrow.
Oh god! I just realized that next night will be my last night in my home for a while... Maybe I should go bed early just to goof around with Tarmo. And try to stay there as long as possible on the morning... Because I just love our bed! It's the best place in the world when Tarmo lies there beside me. And I have to play with our cats the whole night because then it's cool enough and they're active. Now they're just sleeping and trying to find the coolest place in here.
And tomorrow I'll leave to Tampere, we'll see Reija at Matkakeskus and I'll give her my key so that she can take care of our babies for the weekend. I'm a bit sad because I didn't see all my friends before leaving though I still try to keep in mind that half a year goes by quickly.
I think this is the last post I'll write in here for a while, so check out my exchange blog if you're interested how's life going at the other side of the sea. (Feels strange to say that.)
ps. Tarmo gave me the red network cable, I asked if we had one spare for me to take with me, he gave me blue, I asked that didn't we have red one somewhere, it was in use but he replaced it with the blue one so that I could have the red one. I just love that man! He didn't even argue, muaha!
Monday, August 06, 2007
Bags Almost Packed!
HA!
I did it! Well almost, it weights now 6kg 100g!!! I still should pack my laptop bag to see how my electronics fits there and how much extra space is left to pack some more with me.
...here's my red suitcase!
And yes, I'm bored. I still should edit few pics but I'm just not interested enough to do that. I thought that I'd send the few pics that Tuula asked me to mail her and then I'll just see if I could fin strength to edit the last pics too. Then I could give the dvd and one book to Reija and she could give them to Tuula as I won't go to the university anymore.
I've been founding more and more butterflies from my stomach. I've started to go through in my mind the coming flights. Sometimes I even get in to the point when it isn't so scary anymore. But mostly I'm nervous. I asked Tarmo if he already gets excited and nervous and he said yes. He worries that what will he do in here when I'm gone. Cute. I won't have to worry what I'll do but I do worry what he'll do. I don't wan him just to sit at home waiting for me. Or waiting to come to US to spend Christmas with me (that is what I'm already waiting for). Though I do know that after the first days and weeks he'll get used to it and he'll live just as normal life as before, maybe hanging out more with his friends.
By the way, Taru called me this morning. Mom and dad weren't invited to Laura's confirmation and party but I and Tarmo were. We couldn't go there unfortunately. But it was funny, she talked me with all the issues she usually talks with mom. It's just that now she couldn't call to mom because she talked mostly of the party where my parents weren't invited. I know that especially mom was offended by that and I think she has all the reasons to get offended. After all mom is close to them. And even though mom says she's not THAT offended, I know she is. I'm too for her... And I don't know why they weren't invited. Nor does she. Usually they go to all parties and they love Mira and Laura both very much. Just another thing that I don't understand. Not that I would understand many things in any case, muaha!
It's so hot. And beautiful weather. But I don't want to go outside because there it's even hotter and I only get burned. Even kitties are all sleepy. But nice weather for my vacation.
We still should clean the house and do some laundry. I think we'll do those on Wednesday and tomorrow we'll go to buy vacuum cleaner pouches. And I really should edit the pics by tomorrow... Maybe I'll do that this evening/night. Now I'm not in the mood.
I did it! Well almost, it weights now 6kg 100g!!! I still should pack my laptop bag to see how my electronics fits there and how much extra space is left to pack some more with me.
Here's my stuff and...
...here's my red suitcase!And yes, I'm bored. I still should edit few pics but I'm just not interested enough to do that. I thought that I'd send the few pics that Tuula asked me to mail her and then I'll just see if I could fin strength to edit the last pics too. Then I could give the dvd and one book to Reija and she could give them to Tuula as I won't go to the university anymore.
I've been founding more and more butterflies from my stomach. I've started to go through in my mind the coming flights. Sometimes I even get in to the point when it isn't so scary anymore. But mostly I'm nervous. I asked Tarmo if he already gets excited and nervous and he said yes. He worries that what will he do in here when I'm gone. Cute. I won't have to worry what I'll do but I do worry what he'll do. I don't wan him just to sit at home waiting for me. Or waiting to come to US to spend Christmas with me (that is what I'm already waiting for). Though I do know that after the first days and weeks he'll get used to it and he'll live just as normal life as before, maybe hanging out more with his friends.
By the way, Taru called me this morning. Mom and dad weren't invited to Laura's confirmation and party but I and Tarmo were. We couldn't go there unfortunately. But it was funny, she talked me with all the issues she usually talks with mom. It's just that now she couldn't call to mom because she talked mostly of the party where my parents weren't invited. I know that especially mom was offended by that and I think she has all the reasons to get offended. After all mom is close to them. And even though mom says she's not THAT offended, I know she is. I'm too for her... And I don't know why they weren't invited. Nor does she. Usually they go to all parties and they love Mira and Laura both very much. Just another thing that I don't understand. Not that I would understand many things in any case, muaha!
It's so hot. And beautiful weather. But I don't want to go outside because there it's even hotter and I only get burned. Even kitties are all sleepy. But nice weather for my vacation.
We still should clean the house and do some laundry. I think we'll do those on Wednesday and tomorrow we'll go to buy vacuum cleaner pouches. And I really should edit the pics by tomorrow... Maybe I'll do that this evening/night. Now I'm not in the mood.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Leaving Party and Butterflies
Omg! I just got a swarm of butterflies into my tummy. I added this counter application to my facebook site and it says 5 days! It can't be!
Yesterday was fun. We jumped again with jump-rope and barbecued and got drunk and went to Rentukka and then back to our place. I also called Jesse and got a good laugh when he asked (and we talked about my thesis) "can I have a testicle cancer in my brains?". I laughed so much!
Me and Kirsikka dancing, after this song Kirsikka bended me back too much and I spilled our drinks over my computer (luckily not over my laptop).
And it's funny, we went to sleep at 4 am which is only hour later than we usually go to sleep! And woke up at noon which is also normal in these days. And I'm not having hang over because I drunk water (about 2 liters) before I went to bed. And that's good.
5 days!!! I can imagine being abroad but I can't imagine traveling alone there... But I can still remember how it was so exciting to travel by train to Tampere and back for the first times. Muaha! Or to Savonlinna and I had to change to bus and I had never traveled there before. It's not that it's not exciting to travel with someone, but alone! I don't know why it's such a big deal. Maybe because I've used to be with Tarmo everywhere I go. Or that I'm not that experienced in traveling and I fear that I get lost (right...) or confused (could happen!) or I get so nervous that I can't speak English (right...) or I miss my flight (so what?) or or... I still know that this will develop me and I want to experience this. But it still scares me.
I know that traveling alone doesn't mean that I won't be social or get company on my way, I know that I will look so frightened that someone more experienced will come and chat with me, muaha! No, I mean that I'm so social that I'll chat with people anyway and that'll relieve my fears. I know that there will be other people who are just in the same situation that I'm in. And it's no point thinking (seriously) what if questions. If something happens then it happens.
I'm not so nervous about actually being at Iowa, not knowing anyone. Well, I almost know someones there. But whole new environment doesn't make me nervous. I know that there are so many other people who I'll meet who are just in the same situation, and I know how to get to the hotel, I'll get my breakfast there on Saturday morning and then my temporary roommate Paola will come and then, then we'll go to check out the city or something. But then I have someone who I can talk with. And it's not that I couldn't go and check out the city by myself but it's the company. And still the airports scare me. Not the flying itself but the airports. All the security checks make me nervous (as they're supposed to do I think) and as being control freak I fear that my tickets are wrong (aren't), my bags include something prohibited (don't), flights will be late (matters only if the flight from Helsinki to Dublin is hours late) or or or... And here I go again.
But still I need to think about these things. I still wait when I'll start crying to Tarmo that I'll miss him, I don't want to leave him and our cats and home, I want him to come with me. The hardest part of this exchange thing is that we'll be separated for four-five months. We're so close to each other and we are used to cuddle, chat and just be with each other every day. We'll still talk to each other every day in the internet but it's not the same. I need comfort and Tarmo gives it to me. But we'll manage. I can only wait the Christmas when he comes there.
And the kitties. I will miss them too, I'm so used to someone soft and warm to curl around my leg or back when I take nap or some black tail to sweep me now and then. Sigh. I will miss my friends and family too. But then again, it's only half a year. It goes by so fast and then I'm suddenly back.
I did this choice to go overseas. I did this choice to miss everyone (not that I could make a choice not to miss anyone, muaha). This is one of my dream come true. Oh I get so excited!
Today is going to be a hang over day though I don't have hang over. This means that I don't need to dress up or go to anywhere. I can just relax. Nice.
Yesterday was fun. We jumped again with jump-rope and barbecued and got drunk and went to Rentukka and then back to our place. I also called Jesse and got a good laugh when he asked (and we talked about my thesis) "can I have a testicle cancer in my brains?". I laughed so much!
J-P and Maria are so cute... at the background we're jumping.
Me, Kirsikka and Reija
Me and Kirsikka dancing, after this song Kirsikka bended me back too much and I spilled our drinks over my computer (luckily not over my laptop).And it's funny, we went to sleep at 4 am which is only hour later than we usually go to sleep! And woke up at noon which is also normal in these days. And I'm not having hang over because I drunk water (about 2 liters) before I went to bed. And that's good.
5 days!!! I can imagine being abroad but I can't imagine traveling alone there... But I can still remember how it was so exciting to travel by train to Tampere and back for the first times. Muaha! Or to Savonlinna and I had to change to bus and I had never traveled there before. It's not that it's not exciting to travel with someone, but alone! I don't know why it's such a big deal. Maybe because I've used to be with Tarmo everywhere I go. Or that I'm not that experienced in traveling and I fear that I get lost (right...) or confused (could happen!) or I get so nervous that I can't speak English (right...) or I miss my flight (so what?) or or... I still know that this will develop me and I want to experience this. But it still scares me.
I know that traveling alone doesn't mean that I won't be social or get company on my way, I know that I will look so frightened that someone more experienced will come and chat with me, muaha! No, I mean that I'm so social that I'll chat with people anyway and that'll relieve my fears. I know that there will be other people who are just in the same situation that I'm in. And it's no point thinking (seriously) what if questions. If something happens then it happens.
I'm not so nervous about actually being at Iowa, not knowing anyone. Well, I almost know someones there. But whole new environment doesn't make me nervous. I know that there are so many other people who I'll meet who are just in the same situation, and I know how to get to the hotel, I'll get my breakfast there on Saturday morning and then my temporary roommate Paola will come and then, then we'll go to check out the city or something. But then I have someone who I can talk with. And it's not that I couldn't go and check out the city by myself but it's the company. And still the airports scare me. Not the flying itself but the airports. All the security checks make me nervous (as they're supposed to do I think) and as being control freak I fear that my tickets are wrong (aren't), my bags include something prohibited (don't), flights will be late (matters only if the flight from Helsinki to Dublin is hours late) or or or... And here I go again.
But still I need to think about these things. I still wait when I'll start crying to Tarmo that I'll miss him, I don't want to leave him and our cats and home, I want him to come with me. The hardest part of this exchange thing is that we'll be separated for four-five months. We're so close to each other and we are used to cuddle, chat and just be with each other every day. We'll still talk to each other every day in the internet but it's not the same. I need comfort and Tarmo gives it to me. But we'll manage. I can only wait the Christmas when he comes there.
And the kitties. I will miss them too, I'm so used to someone soft and warm to curl around my leg or back when I take nap or some black tail to sweep me now and then. Sigh. I will miss my friends and family too. But then again, it's only half a year. It goes by so fast and then I'm suddenly back.
I did this choice to go overseas. I did this choice to miss everyone (not that I could make a choice not to miss anyone, muaha). This is one of my dream come true. Oh I get so excited!
Today is going to be a hang over day though I don't have hang over. This means that I don't need to dress up or go to anywhere. I can just relax. Nice.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Dream Bag
Now how come everyone dies at the same time??? My mothers cousins dad just died. Olavi's brother. Sigh. But he (hopefully) is last of that generation, now there shouldn't be anyone who'd pass away of old age. He wasn't so close to me though that doesn't mean that I wouldn't mourn him.
I realized yesterday while I checked my flights (and realized that I really can't check them earlier that 48h before the departure) that I have a problem. I was supposed to carry with me a small suitcase, laptop bag and handbag. BUT I can have only my small suitcase AND ONE personal item which is laptop bag OR handbag... So I'll have to leave my handbag away and try to fit my papers etc stuff in that suitcase and it can weight only 6kg! My laptop is so heavy that I can't put it in the suitcase and the laptop bag is so small that I can't put my handbag stuff there. Did I explain my situation clear enough? I'm in trouble! I can't leave without handbag! Where am I supposed to carry my items when I'm in US? I could buy a new bag but I need time to find a PERFECT bag (though I'm bagaholic, I won't buy just ANY bag). Though if I leave my bag home that'd be a good reason to try to find my dream bag... I already found one from Helsinki but it cost over 100€... And I've been trying to find one almost a year! It's like this:
BUT brown and bigger and it has smocking like this bag:
And yes, I really have seen one! So my dream bag exists! Sigh. I feel so superficial. Muaha! Which reminds me of my another problem. My hairdryer. I can't take it either with me. I didn't pack it before because I thought it had fit into my suitcase but it turned out that it doesn't fit. But that isn't that big problem. My hairdryer isn't so good anymore so I'd need to buy new one anyway sometime... But the bag... By the way, these bags are Daniel Ray bags if someone wants to know.
I packed my suitcase yesterday and weighted it, I got 1kg away by leaving some papers away but it still weights 1kg too much. But I thought that I'll try again next week. Thought there isn't much stuff that I can leave anymore... I need to survive one week with that bag (and its contents) so I can't just leave clothes away (and I don't have many in that bag). And my cosmetics include only must-haves like shampoo etc and they're all samples! But I'll worry that again next week. My bag just weights alone so much... But I can't buy new one because I already have this one, it's red and I got it from my friends as a gift and I want to use it because it reminds me of my friends. Oh why is this so complicated?? And it really isn't, I just make it complicated.
But now that I wrote it down, maybe I'll leave my handbag and buy new one from Iowa. I'll buy new bags anyway, muaha! Yes. That I'll do. The bag weights quite much anyway... Problem solved.
It's beautiful weather outside, it's been ages since there was that beautiful and warm weather! And that suites me because I'm having my leaving party today and I'll keep it outside! We'll barbecue and when it gets cold and late we'll go to Rentukka.
And last but not least, me. I got ready almost an hour ago, still another to go before the party starts! I just needed to take a pic where my hair and makeup is fresh. Muaha! And I don't know why but it looks like my eyebrow had a scar. Though it is kind of bold from that spot, has always been. But there's no scar. But I kind of like it.
I realized yesterday while I checked my flights (and realized that I really can't check them earlier that 48h before the departure) that I have a problem. I was supposed to carry with me a small suitcase, laptop bag and handbag. BUT I can have only my small suitcase AND ONE personal item which is laptop bag OR handbag... So I'll have to leave my handbag away and try to fit my papers etc stuff in that suitcase and it can weight only 6kg! My laptop is so heavy that I can't put it in the suitcase and the laptop bag is so small that I can't put my handbag stuff there. Did I explain my situation clear enough? I'm in trouble! I can't leave without handbag! Where am I supposed to carry my items when I'm in US? I could buy a new bag but I need time to find a PERFECT bag (though I'm bagaholic, I won't buy just ANY bag). Though if I leave my bag home that'd be a good reason to try to find my dream bag... I already found one from Helsinki but it cost over 100€... And I've been trying to find one almost a year! It's like this:
BUT brown and bigger and it has smocking like this bag:
And yes, I really have seen one! So my dream bag exists! Sigh. I feel so superficial. Muaha! Which reminds me of my another problem. My hairdryer. I can't take it either with me. I didn't pack it before because I thought it had fit into my suitcase but it turned out that it doesn't fit. But that isn't that big problem. My hairdryer isn't so good anymore so I'd need to buy new one anyway sometime... But the bag... By the way, these bags are Daniel Ray bags if someone wants to know.I packed my suitcase yesterday and weighted it, I got 1kg away by leaving some papers away but it still weights 1kg too much. But I thought that I'll try again next week. Thought there isn't much stuff that I can leave anymore... I need to survive one week with that bag (and its contents) so I can't just leave clothes away (and I don't have many in that bag). And my cosmetics include only must-haves like shampoo etc and they're all samples! But I'll worry that again next week. My bag just weights alone so much... But I can't buy new one because I already have this one, it's red and I got it from my friends as a gift and I want to use it because it reminds me of my friends. Oh why is this so complicated?? And it really isn't, I just make it complicated.
But now that I wrote it down, maybe I'll leave my handbag and buy new one from Iowa. I'll buy new bags anyway, muaha! Yes. That I'll do. The bag weights quite much anyway... Problem solved.
It's beautiful weather outside, it's been ages since there was that beautiful and warm weather! And that suites me because I'm having my leaving party today and I'll keep it outside! We'll barbecue and when it gets cold and late we'll go to Rentukka.
And last but not least, me. I got ready almost an hour ago, still another to go before the party starts! I just needed to take a pic where my hair and makeup is fresh. Muaha! And I don't know why but it looks like my eyebrow had a scar. Though it is kind of bold from that spot, has always been. But there's no scar. But I kind of like it.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
On Vacation
I felt so grown up today! I was at the bank and I got some dollars and travelers checks. I've never had checks before. And I've never changed money at bank. I had to take a pic of my new money, muaha!
I used as a background our new pillowcases and pillows! I've been supposed to buy new pillows for ages since the old ones were quite bad already and then I had really wakening moment when we slept at Ilona's. Her pillows were so perfect that I thought, now! And they were expensive, 70€ each, but at 70% discount! I also bought pillowcases for them and new curtains to bedroom!
I'd like to have new shower curtain too because kitties tore the old one and it looks ugly. But I couldn't find any nice shower curtains! So I didn't buy new one.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm about to move away for six months and I can soon decorate my new room, but now I got this weird decoration boost and I'd like to have all kinds of new stuff in here! I already found sofa, tv surface, shelves, coffee table, dinner table and chairs, night table... Which means that I already renewed our house totally. I also dream of new curtains to our livingroom and new carpet... But I think we'll start to look those things when we get money somewhere. Tarmo already said that he trusts in my taste so that means no fighting! Muaha!
Yesterday we had a meeting where we went through my work. I didn't have enough time to go through all my pics but we wouldn't have had enough time to go through all of them anyway. But it cheered me up because I indeed got some results! I hadn't realized those things before, not that I had much time to think my work... I still need to edit the last pics and send Tuula some pics, then it's all done. But that can wait, I'm on vacation now!!! Finally!!! I washed our fridge and I thought I'd go through my exchange papers too today, or tonight. On Saturday I'll have my leaving party at our backyard. Then I'll just relax and enjoy Tarmo and kitties.
In a week I'll be at Iowa! Awful! Yet still wonderful! I still should call and reserve the transportation from the airport to the hotel and check my flights and pack bags. And check where I should be and what time when the orientation starts. I got a new ticket to my student card and there were lots of exchange students too. My tummy started to prickle...
But now I get back to arranging our stuff...
I used as a background our new pillowcases and pillows! I've been supposed to buy new pillows for ages since the old ones were quite bad already and then I had really wakening moment when we slept at Ilona's. Her pillows were so perfect that I thought, now! And they were expensive, 70€ each, but at 70% discount! I also bought pillowcases for them and new curtains to bedroom!
I'd like to have new shower curtain too because kitties tore the old one and it looks ugly. But I couldn't find any nice shower curtains! So I didn't buy new one.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm about to move away for six months and I can soon decorate my new room, but now I got this weird decoration boost and I'd like to have all kinds of new stuff in here! I already found sofa, tv surface, shelves, coffee table, dinner table and chairs, night table... Which means that I already renewed our house totally. I also dream of new curtains to our livingroom and new carpet... But I think we'll start to look those things when we get money somewhere. Tarmo already said that he trusts in my taste so that means no fighting! Muaha!
Yesterday we had a meeting where we went through my work. I didn't have enough time to go through all my pics but we wouldn't have had enough time to go through all of them anyway. But it cheered me up because I indeed got some results! I hadn't realized those things before, not that I had much time to think my work... I still need to edit the last pics and send Tuula some pics, then it's all done. But that can wait, I'm on vacation now!!! Finally!!! I washed our fridge and I thought I'd go through my exchange papers too today, or tonight. On Saturday I'll have my leaving party at our backyard. Then I'll just relax and enjoy Tarmo and kitties.
In a week I'll be at Iowa! Awful! Yet still wonderful! I still should call and reserve the transportation from the airport to the hotel and check my flights and pack bags. And check where I should be and what time when the orientation starts. I got a new ticket to my student card and there were lots of exchange students too. My tummy started to prickle...
But now I get back to arranging our stuff...
Monday, July 30, 2007
Feeling Better
Phew, I just had a nice migraine. My fingers went numb, as went my tongue and throat. Then the headache hit and even painkiller wouldn't help. I tried to do some editing with my photos but I couldn't stare the screen for long. Finally I went to sleep, slept almost and hour and now it's better. But my motivation is too low. I'd just want to relax. But that'll be soon.
During the weekend I read Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows! On Friday we left to Tampere and I bought the book on our way there. On Saturday we went to this nice bar and some of my friends came there (though some of them didn't and I feel sad because of that though I know the must've had something else to do). But I had fun. And after all it's only half a year I'm away. We don't see each other anyway often.
But here's some pics from the evening.
We has so much fun that night. We went to sleet at Ilona's and slept well. My parents couch wasn't so comfortable and we slept that night badly the other night at Tampere. On Sunday we came back home. We had a friend who looked after the kitties, they were good, not a problem at all. So it's not that big thing to leave them alone over a weekend if someone just comes and sees them twice a day. Though I don't prefer that solution but sometimes there's no other way.
I'd need to edit about 1500 pics for Wednesday. My cell pics I mean. I'll just need to sit by my laptop the whole day tomorrow. I still have post migraine feeling.
But so, I read Harry Potter. No worries, I'm not going to spoil. It was nice reading. I sat my nose buried in that book all the time I could. Though I had to get it finished during the weekend so that I'd had time to edit my pics.
Ilona's place was beautiful. She lives in this old house and though it was a small place it looked so like her. Neat, white and brown, nice green couch, elegant. Now I want a sofa in here too really badly! But we don't have enough money to buy one now. So it'll have to wait. I dream of buying new sofa, bookshelf and some other objects. But maybe only after I get some money from somewhere (meaning salary).
It's not even two weeks and I'm gone! Awful! I still need to get the pics out of my to dos before I can start to think the exchange more. I need to go to bank and call a transportation for Iowa, the almost all should be in order. I also should clean out house throughly before I leave.
But now back to the pics. I still have much to do with them tonight. Luckily my day rhythm has changed, I stay up 3 am and wake up 11 am. Good.
I still need to say that I felt so much better last Friday when I put all my cells away. No more lab!
During the weekend I read Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows! On Friday we left to Tampere and I bought the book on our way there. On Saturday we went to this nice bar and some of my friends came there (though some of them didn't and I feel sad because of that though I know the must've had something else to do). But I had fun. And after all it's only half a year I'm away. We don't see each other anyway often.
But here's some pics from the evening.
Me and Ilona at her place (which was beautiful)
Tarmo and me (always so peaceful)
And I love this pic, Tarmo and me again. Quite drunk already.
We has so much fun that night. We went to sleet at Ilona's and slept well. My parents couch wasn't so comfortable and we slept that night badly the other night at Tampere. On Sunday we came back home. We had a friend who looked after the kitties, they were good, not a problem at all. So it's not that big thing to leave them alone over a weekend if someone just comes and sees them twice a day. Though I don't prefer that solution but sometimes there's no other way.
I'd need to edit about 1500 pics for Wednesday. My cell pics I mean. I'll just need to sit by my laptop the whole day tomorrow. I still have post migraine feeling.
But so, I read Harry Potter. No worries, I'm not going to spoil. It was nice reading. I sat my nose buried in that book all the time I could. Though I had to get it finished during the weekend so that I'd had time to edit my pics.
Ilona's place was beautiful. She lives in this old house and though it was a small place it looked so like her. Neat, white and brown, nice green couch, elegant. Now I want a sofa in here too really badly! But we don't have enough money to buy one now. So it'll have to wait. I dream of buying new sofa, bookshelf and some other objects. But maybe only after I get some money from somewhere (meaning salary).
It's not even two weeks and I'm gone! Awful! I still need to get the pics out of my to dos before I can start to think the exchange more. I need to go to bank and call a transportation for Iowa, the almost all should be in order. I also should clean out house throughly before I leave.
But now back to the pics. I still have much to do with them tonight. Luckily my day rhythm has changed, I stay up 3 am and wake up 11 am. Good.
I still need to say that I felt so much better last Friday when I put all my cells away. No more lab!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
My Past
Muaha, I just found my old old blog I wrote when I had just moved in Jyväskylä. Oh god I was such a partygirl! Almost every weekend at bar. How could I afford that??? Well, I had been working last summer so maybe I had money. And I was lonely. I see it only now. I'm so much happier and more balanced than ever.
And my stress is beginning to ease. Though I'm now sick, luckily I had only two really bad days (fever and still 9 hours at the lab). I'm better now, still coughing and my throat is sore. Still one week to go with the work, not so long hours which is more that good. I'll survive as I said. And I'm happy that I did this much work.
I heard that the last Harry Potter has been published! I thought it'd come out tomorrow. I try to get it as soon as possible. Maybe I could read it next week. Or the week after that.
Tarmos mom and her husband will come here tonight. And my parents visited yesterday. and next weekend we'll go to Tampere.
I'm still thinking my earlier blog. My life was only reading, bar and tv. Well not only, I had friends but I realize now that I still was lonely. But what else could I feel? I'd just ended my long relationship, had moved to a new city ans started whole new life. But I must say, I did enjoy my single life, at least most of it. I do feel better now with Tarmo but I needed that time. And I'm glad that I experienced that all. My biggest fear was that I'd turn up cold but I didn't. It was fun to read my thoughts two years ago and to notice how much I've changed. I am adult now and I've developed much emotionally. And I feel more secure now. I don't stress up so much of exams (though I should) and I've calmed down. But isn't that what happens when one gets in a relationship? Though I'm much poorer now so I can't afford to go to bars every weekend.
But enough of my past life. Lets think my future.
I chatted with Saana last night and I realized that I'm starting to think the excange more and more. Now I have the time to think about it. I start to be nervous about the flights (well I'm not nervous now but every time I think of them, I get nervous). How do I find all the desks? I've been traveling so little especially by plain, so I fear airports a bit. Though I know I'll manage, I can speak and I'm not afraid to ask someones help if I need it. And luckily I'm women so people are more friendly towards me. At least I believe so. I'll just look innocent and frightened so that they'll just feel sorry for me and help me. Muaha!
I'll try to wake up at 11 am beginning next week. Then I've turned my dayschedule four hours. And the last week I'll try to wake up at 12 am. I believe that's the point I just can't sleep later.
This text is beginning to be just a stream of consciousness so I'll stop writing now. In a hour there will be this movie I'll watch. Hope the next week goes fast! I want to stay home!
And my stress is beginning to ease. Though I'm now sick, luckily I had only two really bad days (fever and still 9 hours at the lab). I'm better now, still coughing and my throat is sore. Still one week to go with the work, not so long hours which is more that good. I'll survive as I said. And I'm happy that I did this much work.
I heard that the last Harry Potter has been published! I thought it'd come out tomorrow. I try to get it as soon as possible. Maybe I could read it next week. Or the week after that.
Tarmos mom and her husband will come here tonight. And my parents visited yesterday. and next weekend we'll go to Tampere.
I'm still thinking my earlier blog. My life was only reading, bar and tv. Well not only, I had friends but I realize now that I still was lonely. But what else could I feel? I'd just ended my long relationship, had moved to a new city ans started whole new life. But I must say, I did enjoy my single life, at least most of it. I do feel better now with Tarmo but I needed that time. And I'm glad that I experienced that all. My biggest fear was that I'd turn up cold but I didn't. It was fun to read my thoughts two years ago and to notice how much I've changed. I am adult now and I've developed much emotionally. And I feel more secure now. I don't stress up so much of exams (though I should) and I've calmed down. But isn't that what happens when one gets in a relationship? Though I'm much poorer now so I can't afford to go to bars every weekend.
But enough of my past life. Lets think my future.
I chatted with Saana last night and I realized that I'm starting to think the excange more and more. Now I have the time to think about it. I start to be nervous about the flights (well I'm not nervous now but every time I think of them, I get nervous). How do I find all the desks? I've been traveling so little especially by plain, so I fear airports a bit. Though I know I'll manage, I can speak and I'm not afraid to ask someones help if I need it. And luckily I'm women so people are more friendly towards me. At least I believe so. I'll just look innocent and frightened so that they'll just feel sorry for me and help me. Muaha!
I'll try to wake up at 11 am beginning next week. Then I've turned my dayschedule four hours. And the last week I'll try to wake up at 12 am. I believe that's the point I just can't sleep later.
This text is beginning to be just a stream of consciousness so I'll stop writing now. In a hour there will be this movie I'll watch. Hope the next week goes fast! I want to stay home!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
I'm Cracking Up
Oh I'm so tired.
I don't know why but Tuula has some kind of stressing influence on me. Every time I talk to her I just get more and more stressed. She doesn't seem to get it that I really have enough work to do. She has said herself that she hasn't been in the lab for a years and I believe she has forgotten that even a little things take time.
I made these tests for her and she forgot to mention some important things about them and it took several hours to figure them out and because of that I couldn't take pics of my own cell things and because of that I now have too many object glasses to shoot. And it stresses me more. I should shoot them in order to get some results and I need the results now to know what to do next.
And I think she got angry with me today. I was in a hell of a hurry and she'd already messaged me and I hadn't had the time to read all the messages and then she calls, the phone is right beside me and there is other person at the lab too so I answer and say quickly that I don't have time to talk now, call later, bye. Then I get a message: I'm not calling. WHAT THE HELL??? Then don't. I don't care. Well I do and I get sad if someone is mean to me. Because I could tell that she got offended or something and got angry. Well I am sorry but I was in a hurry and I couldn't speak!!! It pissed me off so much that if I had been alone I would've cried.
I know that she just tried to help me because I just had said her that I'm missing some dyes. But she was supposed to be at the university today and she didn't come (we should've had a meeting) and she asked if I'd need her and I answered that not necessarily (I didn't want her to come just for me cause I know she'd want to be home). Argh! Then I messaged her back few hours later (when I had time to write her) and said some things where she usually replies but now nothing. So I know that she's insulted. And so am I! But I'm just me and I won't say anything. But I know that if she says something tomorrow, I'll have to leave her room cause I'm so stressed that I'll get tears in my eye just for nothing. And this stresses me even more!
Luckily Reija helps me. If there wasn't her, I'd die. But I don't want to bother her too much. Just now I hang on because I know in a week I don't have to go to the university every fucking day. Then I just need to think what I've done and why and make some pics and charts... But then I can be at home.
I don't know why I'm starting to get a burn out (again) now... I'm so close finishing my tests and I do have all the material (in the form of experiments) I need for my thesis, I don't need to write it now and if I need to, I can do some extra experiments later. So why am I cracking up now?? Everything is perfect at home so it's not that either. Everything is fine with friends too. Why??? I feel like I'm so weak that I can't handle the pressure. And I'm getting a flu. I'm sure the first day I stay at home, I get a fever and I can't do anything.
I've been updating the official lab book too, I'm only a week behind (and that is 20 pages). I'll try to get it on date today. Then I should use my evenings after lab to do all the charts ready (not a big thing really) and retouch hundreds of pics (a big thing really). And all this before August. I plan to do NOTHING RELATED TO WORK on August. I need a vacation and I'm going to take it too. Muaha!
Still two weeks... I'll manage. I have to. I will.
I don't know why but Tuula has some kind of stressing influence on me. Every time I talk to her I just get more and more stressed. She doesn't seem to get it that I really have enough work to do. She has said herself that she hasn't been in the lab for a years and I believe she has forgotten that even a little things take time.
I made these tests for her and she forgot to mention some important things about them and it took several hours to figure them out and because of that I couldn't take pics of my own cell things and because of that I now have too many object glasses to shoot. And it stresses me more. I should shoot them in order to get some results and I need the results now to know what to do next.
And I think she got angry with me today. I was in a hell of a hurry and she'd already messaged me and I hadn't had the time to read all the messages and then she calls, the phone is right beside me and there is other person at the lab too so I answer and say quickly that I don't have time to talk now, call later, bye. Then I get a message: I'm not calling. WHAT THE HELL??? Then don't. I don't care. Well I do and I get sad if someone is mean to me. Because I could tell that she got offended or something and got angry. Well I am sorry but I was in a hurry and I couldn't speak!!! It pissed me off so much that if I had been alone I would've cried.
I know that she just tried to help me because I just had said her that I'm missing some dyes. But she was supposed to be at the university today and she didn't come (we should've had a meeting) and she asked if I'd need her and I answered that not necessarily (I didn't want her to come just for me cause I know she'd want to be home). Argh! Then I messaged her back few hours later (when I had time to write her) and said some things where she usually replies but now nothing. So I know that she's insulted. And so am I! But I'm just me and I won't say anything. But I know that if she says something tomorrow, I'll have to leave her room cause I'm so stressed that I'll get tears in my eye just for nothing. And this stresses me even more!
Luckily Reija helps me. If there wasn't her, I'd die. But I don't want to bother her too much. Just now I hang on because I know in a week I don't have to go to the university every fucking day. Then I just need to think what I've done and why and make some pics and charts... But then I can be at home.
I don't know why I'm starting to get a burn out (again) now... I'm so close finishing my tests and I do have all the material (in the form of experiments) I need for my thesis, I don't need to write it now and if I need to, I can do some extra experiments later. So why am I cracking up now?? Everything is perfect at home so it's not that either. Everything is fine with friends too. Why??? I feel like I'm so weak that I can't handle the pressure. And I'm getting a flu. I'm sure the first day I stay at home, I get a fever and I can't do anything.
I've been updating the official lab book too, I'm only a week behind (and that is 20 pages). I'll try to get it on date today. Then I should use my evenings after lab to do all the charts ready (not a big thing really) and retouch hundreds of pics (a big thing really). And all this before August. I plan to do NOTHING RELATED TO WORK on August. I need a vacation and I'm going to take it too. Muaha!
Still two weeks... I'll manage. I have to. I will.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Visa, Funeral and Party
I got my visa today! So another big thing under control.
I've been checking so many times for how long I really can be in the States. And I finally found a page where it is said clearly enough so that I don't worry anymore. It's just that in every place it says that one can stay in the US as long as is said in the visa. And it's 31 Dec in my case! I remember clearly that I've read many times that it's that time plus 30 days. But all I could find from the embassy's pages was that how much earlier I can enter US! But now I used half an hour to really find it. And here it is:
So, now I stop worrying about that. It says so in my blog and I'm always right, right? (Please Kirsikka, leave a comment). Muaha!
And the funeral is over too. It's funny that before the funeral I cried once when I heard that grandmom had died (if the one time isn't counted, I cried when I thought she'd going to die last Fall), and once at the funeral (well almost all the time at the chapel). Then I felt relieved. It was over. The ceremony as it self was boring. There weren't any Karelian pasties!!!! Who cares if they had been bought from some shop??? Grandmom ALWAYS made them! Bah. And all the relatives from that side are lunatic. Well, almost all. Most of them.
One of her children is the craziest. She was there AND wrote an address where was something like this "Mom, sorry mom, you were important blaa blaa". Oh, so strange! They were always fighting (mom says there's gotta be something at the background, no-one can be that angry with ones mom!) and now she was so regretting and all. And everyone could see it's only a fake show. She's just so weird. She is! Her kids couldn't come there because they are having some fight (that has lasted as long as I can remember)... I just can't understand. I hope I don't have to invite them to any parties! I do hope so though if I'm going to have any party (meaning wedding or something, which means that at least SHE should have died.. she's over 70... mean but still...) I need to invite them. I'm not going to participate in their fights, as long as they don't fight in my party!
I'd post a pic of grandmoms coffin but I don't consider it acceptable. So I won't.
After the funeral we got back home and I left almost immediately back at lab, did some cell things and got back home. After that we went to Emmi's and Elina's birthday party. I had booze from the midsummers and took it with me. And drank it all. Plus the punch. Though not all of it. Muaha. Then I felt like partying and went to Karma where the sock sweat and urine smelled (not nice) and the floor was all sticky. But we spent some hours there, and I even danced! And drank three ciders. And water. After that we went to get some pizza and walked home with Kirsikka. I had a really good night and after being a bit quiet at the sisters place (Elinas actually) I felt nice. We spoke english at the pizza place and it was fun. I have no idea what time it was when I got to bed, my watch is at clockmaker. Next day I woke up at 9 am and couldn't sleep because I knew my parents would be here in a few hours (they were going to my aunts cottage, it's about an hour and a half drive from here). We had time to clean the house (the usual Sunday cleaning) and to recover a bit. I had a slight hangover. But not too bad. Now I can be sober for a month. Well, three weeks. Then I'm going to Tampere to celebrate my leaving with some friends and after that the next weekend I'm going to celebrate it again in here.
Oh, I just realized that I'm going to leave in a month! It can't be so soon...
And my cells... I don't have enough time to repeat my experiments as many times as I'd like to and would be recommended but I just need to cope with that. If I'm hard working, I'll get my experiments done in a three weeks. Then I'll have few days to think what I've done and few days off too. The latter one sounds quite nice.
And the final thing in this blog entry; I hate this summer! I mean the weather. It's nothing but rain and gray sky! It makes me feel tired!
I still had something to say but I forgot it so it must be nothing interesting. Oh now I remember, I turned one watch in our house to display the Iowa time. Now I don't feel so bad when waking up and staying up late. Handy.
I've been checking so many times for how long I really can be in the States. And I finally found a page where it is said clearly enough so that I don't worry anymore. It's just that in every place it says that one can stay in the US as long as is said in the visa. And it's 31 Dec in my case! I remember clearly that I've read many times that it's that time plus 30 days. But all I could find from the embassy's pages was that how much earlier I can enter US! But now I used half an hour to really find it. And here it is:
The initial admission of an exchange visitor, spouse and children may not exceed the period specified on Form DS-2019, plus a period of 30 days for the purpose of travel. The 30-day grace or travel status period is intended to be a period following the end of the exchange visitor’s program and is to be used for domestic travel and/or to prepare for and depart from the U.S., and for no other purpose.From here.
So, now I stop worrying about that. It says so in my blog and I'm always right, right? (Please Kirsikka, leave a comment). Muaha!
And the funeral is over too. It's funny that before the funeral I cried once when I heard that grandmom had died (if the one time isn't counted, I cried when I thought she'd going to die last Fall), and once at the funeral (well almost all the time at the chapel). Then I felt relieved. It was over. The ceremony as it self was boring. There weren't any Karelian pasties!!!! Who cares if they had been bought from some shop??? Grandmom ALWAYS made them! Bah. And all the relatives from that side are lunatic. Well, almost all. Most of them.
One of her children is the craziest. She was there AND wrote an address where was something like this "Mom, sorry mom, you were important blaa blaa". Oh, so strange! They were always fighting (mom says there's gotta be something at the background, no-one can be that angry with ones mom!) and now she was so regretting and all. And everyone could see it's only a fake show. She's just so weird. She is! Her kids couldn't come there because they are having some fight (that has lasted as long as I can remember)... I just can't understand. I hope I don't have to invite them to any parties! I do hope so though if I'm going to have any party (meaning wedding or something, which means that at least SHE should have died.. she's over 70... mean but still...) I need to invite them. I'm not going to participate in their fights, as long as they don't fight in my party!
I'd post a pic of grandmoms coffin but I don't consider it acceptable. So I won't.
After the funeral we got back home and I left almost immediately back at lab, did some cell things and got back home. After that we went to Emmi's and Elina's birthday party. I had booze from the midsummers and took it with me. And drank it all. Plus the punch. Though not all of it. Muaha. Then I felt like partying and went to Karma where the sock sweat and urine smelled (not nice) and the floor was all sticky. But we spent some hours there, and I even danced! And drank three ciders. And water. After that we went to get some pizza and walked home with Kirsikka. I had a really good night and after being a bit quiet at the sisters place (Elinas actually) I felt nice. We spoke english at the pizza place and it was fun. I have no idea what time it was when I got to bed, my watch is at clockmaker. Next day I woke up at 9 am and couldn't sleep because I knew my parents would be here in a few hours (they were going to my aunts cottage, it's about an hour and a half drive from here). We had time to clean the house (the usual Sunday cleaning) and to recover a bit. I had a slight hangover. But not too bad. Now I can be sober for a month. Well, three weeks. Then I'm going to Tampere to celebrate my leaving with some friends and after that the next weekend I'm going to celebrate it again in here.
Oh, I just realized that I'm going to leave in a month! It can't be so soon...
And my cells... I don't have enough time to repeat my experiments as many times as I'd like to and would be recommended but I just need to cope with that. If I'm hard working, I'll get my experiments done in a three weeks. Then I'll have few days to think what I've done and few days off too. The latter one sounds quite nice.
And the final thing in this blog entry; I hate this summer! I mean the weather. It's nothing but rain and gray sky! It makes me feel tired!
I still had something to say but I forgot it so it must be nothing interesting. Oh now I remember, I turned one watch in our house to display the Iowa time. Now I don't feel so bad when waking up and staying up late. Handy.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Visa Interview
I had my visa interview yesterday and it was quite scary! Not really. The security protocol there was the scary thing.
So I left on Monday to Tampere, missed the train I was supposed to go by, got late at my parents house, went late to bed and slept about three hours. At 3.30 am I woke up to make coffee and our bus to the train left 4.50 am and the train left 5.33 am. Too early! So we were at Helsinki at 7 am and walked to the embassy area. It was beautiful and when we reached our destination, the US embassy, there was right away a policeman (quite handsome one) questioning us, who were we, what were we doing there and I had to show my applications and passport. Then he said that we should go to some cafe to wait until it's 9 am. So we walked to the beach (harbor actually) but the cafe was open only after 9 am. And mom got a call from her cousin who told that their other cousins husband had just died. So she cried and was really sad. And she said I shouldn't comfort her or she will just cry. So I gave her a big hug and tried to cheer her up.
Then we walked back to the embassy and I got in exactly 9.05. I went through a security check, got escorted (by other handsome policeman) to the interview place and waited there for an hour! There were three desks and the interview people were all behind this glass and you talked with them via microphone (just like in prisons... or in movies, muaha) and everyone could hear what you said to them and what they said to you! The first desk checked my application and took it in. After about half an hour the second desk asked my finger prints (the device looked just like the ones which removes your fingerprints!) and finally the third desk asked me three questions: where will you study, what will you study and how long have you studied in university. And then I got escorted back (by the first handsome policeman), got my bag back and then it was it. It was quite fun (with my imagination).
After that we went shopping. And it was... exhausting. We had this list but finally we got only half of the things (and the list wasn't long!). We sought for FIVE hours a shirt for me for the funerals! There weren't ANY nice and conservative, black shirts anywhere!!! Well there were but then they cost like 100 €. Finally we found this nice dress for me (it was quite expensive though in sale). Then we tried to find some quiet pizza place but couldn't find one (mom wanted a pizza) so we went to some chicken fast food place, ate nuggets and tried to use our last hour finding the last things we were supposed to buy. But still we didn't get all. Then the last train left and I read a cosmo with a BIG cup of coffee in front of me, changed train in Tampere (which luckily waited our late train) and got home 10 pm. And I was so exhausted!!! I couldn't even go to shower and I'm still tired. But my things to do -list is now one thing shorter. Visa in order, it should be here by tomorrow or Friday.
Last week on Sunday we had our anniversary and we went to eat to Banthai (surprise surprise). The food was (as usual) delicious. After that we went to home and just relaxed the rest of the day.
Tomorrow I'll have hard day again. I need to do hundred different things and I hope I can keep all of them in my head so that I'll do them also! I will.
And on Saturday we'll go to the funerals.
Rough week. Luckily it's already Wednesday, halfway through the week.
We'll go soon to downtown and find Tarmo a dress shirt and a tie for the funerals and some other things and then we'll go to Waynes Coffee for a chocolate coffee and big chocolate muffin!
So I left on Monday to Tampere, missed the train I was supposed to go by, got late at my parents house, went late to bed and slept about three hours. At 3.30 am I woke up to make coffee and our bus to the train left 4.50 am and the train left 5.33 am. Too early! So we were at Helsinki at 7 am and walked to the embassy area. It was beautiful and when we reached our destination, the US embassy, there was right away a policeman (quite handsome one) questioning us, who were we, what were we doing there and I had to show my applications and passport. Then he said that we should go to some cafe to wait until it's 9 am. So we walked to the beach (harbor actually) but the cafe was open only after 9 am. And mom got a call from her cousin who told that their other cousins husband had just died. So she cried and was really sad. And she said I shouldn't comfort her or she will just cry. So I gave her a big hug and tried to cheer her up.
Then we walked back to the embassy and I got in exactly 9.05. I went through a security check, got escorted (by other handsome policeman) to the interview place and waited there for an hour! There were three desks and the interview people were all behind this glass and you talked with them via microphone (just like in prisons... or in movies, muaha) and everyone could hear what you said to them and what they said to you! The first desk checked my application and took it in. After about half an hour the second desk asked my finger prints (the device looked just like the ones which removes your fingerprints!) and finally the third desk asked me three questions: where will you study, what will you study and how long have you studied in university. And then I got escorted back (by the first handsome policeman), got my bag back and then it was it. It was quite fun (with my imagination).
After that we went shopping. And it was... exhausting. We had this list but finally we got only half of the things (and the list wasn't long!). We sought for FIVE hours a shirt for me for the funerals! There weren't ANY nice and conservative, black shirts anywhere!!! Well there were but then they cost like 100 €. Finally we found this nice dress for me (it was quite expensive though in sale). Then we tried to find some quiet pizza place but couldn't find one (mom wanted a pizza) so we went to some chicken fast food place, ate nuggets and tried to use our last hour finding the last things we were supposed to buy. But still we didn't get all. Then the last train left and I read a cosmo with a BIG cup of coffee in front of me, changed train in Tampere (which luckily waited our late train) and got home 10 pm. And I was so exhausted!!! I couldn't even go to shower and I'm still tired. But my things to do -list is now one thing shorter. Visa in order, it should be here by tomorrow or Friday.
Last week on Sunday we had our anniversary and we went to eat to Banthai (surprise surprise). The food was (as usual) delicious. After that we went to home and just relaxed the rest of the day.
Tomorrow I'll have hard day again. I need to do hundred different things and I hope I can keep all of them in my head so that I'll do them also! I will.
And on Saturday we'll go to the funerals.
Rough week. Luckily it's already Wednesday, halfway through the week.
We'll go soon to downtown and find Tarmo a dress shirt and a tie for the funerals and some other things and then we'll go to Waynes Coffee for a chocolate coffee and big chocolate muffin!
Friday, June 29, 2007
Stress
I fucking messed up with my cells. Damned!
Well not really badly but still it pisses me off. Yesterday was a good day. I did a lot at lab an read a bit. But at night about 4.30 am I suddenly wake up eyes wide open - shit! I forgot to put cells in multiwells! What will I do now? I can't do any staining!!! I was up two hours and it took all that time to realize that it's really not that bad mistake. But I kept swearing how stupid I am and how can I forget such a thing. I finally fell asleep but woke really tired. And still pissed. I send Tuula a message where I said that there will be no cell dyeing this or next week. I also said that maybe it's good. If I can't remember a simple thing and concentrate enough to seed my cells at all needed plates, maybe it's not good to do hundred different experiments at the same time. She agreed.
And besides I still have four weeks time, and in that time I can still do the experiments three times. So no big harm. I still have a lot work to do, 100 plates to shoot and count. And in these plates I'll have four different cells and eight different treatments. So I believe that's enough for one week. And I still have one extra week if I need one, though then I won't have any free time... So I hope I can do all my experiments in a month.
And now next week isn't so stressful for me. On Tuesday I need to go to Helsinki for my visa interview and on Saturday we need to go to Tampere (grandmothers funerals). And on both of these days I'd have work to do and it would've been Reija who had done them. And now she doesn't need to stain the cells (and I would've wanted to do those because my cells don't play with me and the colors I use). So now she only needs to take pics and count the cells on Tuesday and on Saturday I need to come to work after the funerals, I need to shoot some pics, count the cells and do some apoptosis tests... Sigh.
And I would like just to be at home and do my work but I fucking have to travel around Finland. Maybe it's good to leave this environment just for a couple of hours, I don't know why I stress so much in here. Maybe it's because I would like to hang around home and be with Tarmo and cats as much as I can before I leave, because I start to realize that I'll be gone for half a year and because my experiments don't go well. I'd like to get all results before I leave and get some kind of conception what I've done and why.
These times I just hope I could do a meaningless job, where I could just do my work and wouldn't need to think anything. But I've done that job for six months in my life and I got bored! It's not for me. I love research. It's my dream job. I try to enjoy it. It's just that I'd need to get all results so soon. Luckily I was clever enough when I scheduled my masters thesis, I said I'd be ready only next spring. And it will.
I'll go home now to sleep with cats.
Well not really badly but still it pisses me off. Yesterday was a good day. I did a lot at lab an read a bit. But at night about 4.30 am I suddenly wake up eyes wide open - shit! I forgot to put cells in multiwells! What will I do now? I can't do any staining!!! I was up two hours and it took all that time to realize that it's really not that bad mistake. But I kept swearing how stupid I am and how can I forget such a thing. I finally fell asleep but woke really tired. And still pissed. I send Tuula a message where I said that there will be no cell dyeing this or next week. I also said that maybe it's good. If I can't remember a simple thing and concentrate enough to seed my cells at all needed plates, maybe it's not good to do hundred different experiments at the same time. She agreed.
And besides I still have four weeks time, and in that time I can still do the experiments three times. So no big harm. I still have a lot work to do, 100 plates to shoot and count. And in these plates I'll have four different cells and eight different treatments. So I believe that's enough for one week. And I still have one extra week if I need one, though then I won't have any free time... So I hope I can do all my experiments in a month.
And now next week isn't so stressful for me. On Tuesday I need to go to Helsinki for my visa interview and on Saturday we need to go to Tampere (grandmothers funerals). And on both of these days I'd have work to do and it would've been Reija who had done them. And now she doesn't need to stain the cells (and I would've wanted to do those because my cells don't play with me and the colors I use). So now she only needs to take pics and count the cells on Tuesday and on Saturday I need to come to work after the funerals, I need to shoot some pics, count the cells and do some apoptosis tests... Sigh.
And I would like just to be at home and do my work but I fucking have to travel around Finland. Maybe it's good to leave this environment just for a couple of hours, I don't know why I stress so much in here. Maybe it's because I would like to hang around home and be with Tarmo and cats as much as I can before I leave, because I start to realize that I'll be gone for half a year and because my experiments don't go well. I'd like to get all results before I leave and get some kind of conception what I've done and why.
These times I just hope I could do a meaningless job, where I could just do my work and wouldn't need to think anything. But I've done that job for six months in my life and I got bored! It's not for me. I love research. It's my dream job. I try to enjoy it. It's just that I'd need to get all results so soon. Luckily I was clever enough when I scheduled my masters thesis, I said I'd be ready only next spring. And it will.
I'll go home now to sleep with cats.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
I Love My Man!
Oh I just love my man!!!
I am home alone and listen music from his computer and suddenly one sad song (Tori Amos - Bonny and Clyde) stops and there comes my song!!! (Seminaarimäen mieslaulajat - Taina)
He did some mystic things at the university and took the winamp under his control (windows remote desktop he says) and ahhh. Tears came into my eyes, I was so touched.
Sigh. I just love that man.
I am home alone and listen music from his computer and suddenly one sad song (Tori Amos - Bonny and Clyde) stops and there comes my song!!! (Seminaarimäen mieslaulajat - Taina)
He did some mystic things at the university and took the winamp under his control (windows remote desktop he says) and ahhh. Tears came into my eyes, I was so touched.
Sigh. I just love that man.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Midsummer
It was fun. We left on Thursday at 9 am, went to pizza, bought some groceries and at 2 pm we were there. We sang a bit before all the others arrived, then we ate and jumped with a rope! It was so fun that we had to buy another one too. And our legs got really sore but it didn't bother us at all. We ate too much and more. Four days went too fast and I could've been there few days more though it was nice to return home. And the whole time everyone were nice, we needed only one comment on someones behavior but after that it was quite nice. Weather could've been a bit warmer and sunnier but it was ok. We were quite a lot outside and the mosquitoes were a nuisance. But all in all the trip was really nice. I relaxed and didn't think work at all. Here's some pics:
And still jumping.
I needed to test this video thing. J-P greets the others and some jumping.
I was really confused today. I was going to do wrong works and didn't remember what I should have been doing. But I did all things that I could do, I was supposed to take some photos but the computer said I didn't have enough space and I couldn't take any pics. I'll try again on Thursday. Tomorrow I'll stay home and edit some pics and try to write something.
Jump baby jump!
Still jumping.
I also tested my camera under water.
Some nice scenery at night.
Bonfire.
And still jumping.
I needed to test this video thing. J-P greets the others and some jumping.
I was really confused today. I was going to do wrong works and didn't remember what I should have been doing. But I did all things that I could do, I was supposed to take some photos but the computer said I didn't have enough space and I couldn't take any pics. I'll try again on Thursday. Tomorrow I'll stay home and edit some pics and try to write something.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Dyeing and Midsummer
We'll go to Tarmos parents cottage next weekend to celebrate Midsummer. There will be 10 people. Kitties will go to Tarmos mom. Can't wait!
I shot some pics of this family and they'll pay me for that! I still should do some work for them but I haven't got the time. I already worked with my cell pics several hours today. I did some dyeing and got some dim results. I'll use stronger concentrations tomorrow.
SH-SY5YThis pic isn't informative but pretty. I had to learn all by my self how to make these pics from BW pics. It took few hours too last night. But now I know how to do it!
My day rhythm is funny. I've always been able to wake early but now I'm up until midnight and all tired at morning (I still wake up every day at 7 am). But I'll fix that starting next week. I'll try to invert my day schedule as much as I can. Then it'll be easier to go to US and (I hope) then the jet lag won't be that terrible. Eight hours backwards. I'd be happy to make even few hours change.
But we'll go to BBQ and chat about next weekend at our back yard.
My day rhythm is funny. I've always been able to wake early but now I'm up until midnight and all tired at morning (I still wake up every day at 7 am). But I'll fix that starting next week. I'll try to invert my day schedule as much as I can. Then it'll be easier to go to US and (I hope) then the jet lag won't be that terrible. Eight hours backwards. I'd be happy to make even few hours change.
But we'll go to BBQ and chat about next weekend at our back yard.
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